I can appreciate the fact that I'm not sexually appealing to most women, with my submissive nature and small endowment. I got into liking humiliation from an ex-gf who picked up on my kinks and did a good job of helping me explore them. I haven't had a serious relationship since, but have had to explore my kinks through "professional" means because it's hard to find another woman who's into humiliating a man. I've gotten to the point that I don't get satisfaction knowing I'm paying for the experience. I need to know that my partner is doing this because she wants to, not because I'm paying her. I'd love a real relationship, but would settle for a cam-ship to start. Anything really just to make me believe there are some of you out there. The only women I've found want paid, and that's fine. But I want someone who actually enjoys SPH and wants to find a weaker man to dominate of their own volition.