oh, yes. very true.
i think a lot of it, for me personally, is that i am still so uncomfortable with the physical aspect of myself that even though i KNOW certain men find me attractive, and i could get out there and pull it off with a snap of a finger, i just can't.
i want to get confident within myself about my outward appearance and sexuality so that when it gets to the point where i'm talking to the guy at the party/coffee shop/bar that i had my eye on all night, it doesn't fall flat where i chicken out to give/get his number out of fear of what comes after all that.
fuck. right now i'm avoiding contact with a guy i've been attracted to for months, and he's been attracted to me. he's finally single, and on halloween we drank enough to grow balls and talked and flirted all night. when i woke up in the morning realizing i promised to call and hangout, the thought of it made me nauseous.