This isn't the first time I've seen you say you are introverted, awkward, socially inept, etc. I think you're using it as an excuse.
Everyone has awkward moments, everyone fears rejection/embarrassment, and I don't think it's really easy for anyone to open up to another person, to take a risk and express their feelings. If it
is easy for someone then I'd suspect they weren't genuine.
You're intelligent and don't seem to be lacking in self-confidence. But you seem to be looking for this perfect player delivery, the perfect approach. It's like you think you need to be super experienced and never show a hint of nervousness or awkwardness in order to attract a woman
Personally I find it repulsive when someone
too smooth hits on me, all I can think about is how many other women he's said the same things to.
You're being silly. For every woman that will reject you for being awkward there are two that will find your vulnerability charming and adorable
Have you ever even
tried the 'maybe a little awkward but genuine' approach? What do you have to lose? Really?
The perfect partner accepts you for how you are. You can train yourself to be something that you are not, but do you want to have to keep up that act for the rest of the relationship? Believe me there are plenty of women out there that will be attracted to you how you are, awkwardness and all.