I'm not religious. I went to Christian school for ten years. If I believe anything, it's be solstice oriented. I'd rather practice pagan sun worship than anything having to do with babies in barns. I'm not going to tell you that Yule is a pagan holiday, because you all know it. Each of you probably have a "Christmas Tree" in your house, and you know damn well the wise men didn't erect one in that barn where Jebus was born. I've come to terms with the facade. Every person that's told me "Merry Christmas" today didn't get one in return. I can't fake it this year. I stare at them blankly. These are people that tell me "hi" normally, but today they're wishing that I be merry........? It's just ridiculous. When I respond in what they perceive as a "bad mood" I get the "Sounds like somebody has a case of the mondays" or "Alright, Ebenezer." My mediocre response was retorted with negativity. Today is not sacred. That is, it's no more than any other day. It's what you make it, just like every other. Nothing bad happened to be today. I didn't get up on the wrong side of the bed. I got all the gifts I asked for. I gave all the gifts everyone asked for. There's no particular reason for the way I'm feeling, other than it's old and it's tired; all this shit. It sounds so hollow: "Merry Christmas." The greetings, yells down the hall, the phone calls, the text messages, the comments on myspace, and no doubt the responses I'll get in this thread will be jackasses saying "Merry Christmas" followed by :mrgreen: smiley faces. It's just all so.........fake. It's an excuse to be happy. I don't need an excuse. Fuck your dumb holiday.