Everyone is special and hot in their own way. Start putting up pics on your profile
You are one of the reasons why I like this site. Just like everyone else I have seen men that just weren't my type and that's OK. There is someone out there for EVERYONE. You may not like your body but, rest assured, there are scores of men out there who will. There is total truth to the saying that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
I applaud you and all the others who encourage individuals to leave behind their fears about being obese or skinny or having a physical deformity that they feel others will find objectionable. Life is too short and too precious to live in the dark shadow of self doubt.