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For the longest time have always had this feeling that i was gay, or even bi. i played straight at school so i wouldn't get picked on or made fun of. now that i am in college i feel the need to be more open about it.
first, a friend of mine joked around about jerking off for money and for jerking off another guy. he asked me once if i ever would be interested in doing a circle jerk with him. i said sure why not and we never really did anything about it. then one night we were watching a movie and we ended up holding hands, then another time we held hands and made out, it was fun and i enjoyed it. we made out one other time and then had sex which i was excited for, i was really starting to like seeing him. he then told me that it was nice having a friend with benefits. that hurt, but we continued to fool around. before i left for school we hung out one last time and said that the whole thing was fun but, it was over. that hurt the most because i thought we were getting closer and might even have dated. but i got over (i think) and left for school.
now that i am in college, i met this guy on my team and we wanted to hang out sometime. he said he was gay which was cool and i really wanted to be his friend. we watched a movie at his house and played footsie, then we held hands which was so nice. he then hugged me and just held me, we kissed and it was the greatest thing i have experienced even with my other friend. we made out and i stayed over at his house, he held me all night and kept telling me how cute i was. he held me so tightly and it made me feel sooooo.....i guessed loved for lack of a better word.
i texted him a lot after that a little more than i suppose i should have, and i think i scared him and he told me that he just got out of a relationship and it was hard. which i was cool with, and he said he wanted to be really good friends. we have hung out since then but nothing like the first night.
all i think about is how amazing it felt to be with him, and knowing that i could be just another friend with benefits scares me so much because i think i really care for this guy.
PLEASE HELP ME:frown1:
first, a friend of mine joked around about jerking off for money and for jerking off another guy. he asked me once if i ever would be interested in doing a circle jerk with him. i said sure why not and we never really did anything about it. then one night we were watching a movie and we ended up holding hands, then another time we held hands and made out, it was fun and i enjoyed it. we made out one other time and then had sex which i was excited for, i was really starting to like seeing him. he then told me that it was nice having a friend with benefits. that hurt, but we continued to fool around. before i left for school we hung out one last time and said that the whole thing was fun but, it was over. that hurt the most because i thought we were getting closer and might even have dated. but i got over (i think) and left for school.
now that i am in college, i met this guy on my team and we wanted to hang out sometime. he said he was gay which was cool and i really wanted to be his friend. we watched a movie at his house and played footsie, then we held hands which was so nice. he then hugged me and just held me, we kissed and it was the greatest thing i have experienced even with my other friend. we made out and i stayed over at his house, he held me all night and kept telling me how cute i was. he held me so tightly and it made me feel sooooo.....i guessed loved for lack of a better word.
i texted him a lot after that a little more than i suppose i should have, and i think i scared him and he told me that he just got out of a relationship and it was hard. which i was cool with, and he said he wanted to be really good friends. we have hung out since then but nothing like the first night.
all i think about is how amazing it felt to be with him, and knowing that i could be just another friend with benefits scares me so much because i think i really care for this guy.
PLEASE HELP ME:frown1: