Something awful happened to me, and now I don't know what to do about it. I'm not sure where to seek advice, but maybe some of you can help me out, 'cause I'm so incredibly helpless. And I'm so embarrassed.
Last Saturday I got raped by another man... I was out and met him at a bar, and he seemed so nice and we talked for two hours. I'm not gay, but bi, so I wanted to do some exploring, so we went back to my place. In the start, right after we only had our underwear on and was kissing, I got uncomfortable and told him that I couldn't do it. Than, he got really mad and said that I only was leading him off and than turning him down, as a tease.
He refused to let it go and leave, so he threw me down on the bed and started raping me... I'm so depressed, and so scared, and I don't know what to do. I know I should call the police and everything, but I only know his first name, which won't help that much in a city of half a million people. I have experienced that if you don't have enough information about the incident, you don't get that far in solving the case, and I won't go through something that awful and embarrassing if it don't result in anything! I was not drunk or influenced when it happened, but he had a couple of drinks, I think... I don't remember that much, 'cause I've suppressed as much of it as possible.
Afterward, I showered and showered and showered, but I can't get clean, and I feel so disgusting. I can't even sleep in my own bed, because it wakes everything back. I sleep with a knife under my pillow in my living room floor, since I'm terrified that he will come back. He knows where I live... Please someone tell me what I should do...
Last Saturday I got raped by another man... I was out and met him at a bar, and he seemed so nice and we talked for two hours. I'm not gay, but bi, so I wanted to do some exploring, so we went back to my place. In the start, right after we only had our underwear on and was kissing, I got uncomfortable and told him that I couldn't do it. Than, he got really mad and said that I only was leading him off and than turning him down, as a tease.
He refused to let it go and leave, so he threw me down on the bed and started raping me... I'm so depressed, and so scared, and I don't know what to do. I know I should call the police and everything, but I only know his first name, which won't help that much in a city of half a million people. I have experienced that if you don't have enough information about the incident, you don't get that far in solving the case, and I won't go through something that awful and embarrassing if it don't result in anything! I was not drunk or influenced when it happened, but he had a couple of drinks, I think... I don't remember that much, 'cause I've suppressed as much of it as possible.
Afterward, I showered and showered and showered, but I can't get clean, and I feel so disgusting. I can't even sleep in my own bed, because it wakes everything back. I sleep with a knife under my pillow in my living room floor, since I'm terrified that he will come back. He knows where I live... Please someone tell me what I should do...