40 years ago I worked in a profession where being gay was looked down upon, both "morally" and socialy, as in the UK it was often thought - spurred on by influential political and media figures - that being gay meant you were a paedophile. This of course was never true, but if you repeat a lie often enough, it is perceived as true. I had to appear straight at work, and at that time with no internet there were only magazines and gay papers (Capital Gay and Pink Paper - I didn't live in London, but Capital Gay got delivered to major cities), so I replied to some of the classified ads for men looking for partners - most of course were just after casual sex, but I met one guy and though there was no sexual attraction between us, something clicked, and, 40 years on we frequently email each other and have remained good friends, and we can "talk" to each other about anything. The early days of course it was letters, and I was so worried at the time that I got an accomodation address (newsagents and tobacconist shops often provided you with a service where you used their address, for I think, 50 pence a week, (about average at the time) and I would call in once a week to pick them up. The only advice I would offer you is to stay discreet if your circumstances demand it, but try to find a confident even if there is no sexual interest there. Better he is gay because he will have more rapport with your feelings even if his interests are disimilar, It is easier to stay anonymous today, far different to the 1980s, I can only imagine what life was like back in the 50s and 60s when being gay was a criminal offence and blackmail was rife. The only other piece of advice I can offer is that though I was straight at work, I never got involved in pretending to be interested in women, or having a "beard" not only is it unfair to the woman to hold out the prospect of offering her something you cannot give, but, as somebody else has quoted Shakespeare, if you go down that route and resentment or anger creeps in "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned". Above all, don't get married because of family pressure - you will ruin your own life, your wifes and any children that come along. I knowone man who did that and his life became a wreck. Good luck