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Ok, so, I have had a couple of identity crisies lately, and out of all of it, Ive had to accept, atleast in myself, that I am bisexual.
The problem is, I dont know what to do about this sudden discovery, I mean, I have no predjudices against anyone, and I've allways prided myself in my acceptance of everyone, no matter what their colour rank or sexuality, so its not that Im upset by my own preferences, but I know other people can be.
Especially here in Scotland, where homophobia seems to be a fashion statement, and I know that several of my extended family are extremly homophobic, one uncle in particular has very "colourful" views and words regarding homosexuals.
And Although I know my friends would be fine about it, and I know that my parents have told me strait out that whatever my preference, they dont mind, they'd be a bit miffed about the family name dieing if I decided I was gay but they wouldnt hold it against me, I know that if Im open about it, I will face a lot of predjudice from other people, and recieve a lot of flak about it, and it might be better just to keep quiet about it.
But I feel like I'm lieing to everyone if I just pretend it isnt there, and I really just need somebody to talk to about it, but I cant talk to my parents, I dont know why, I just dont think I can face them with this, even thoguh they are accepting, they have a lot of stuff on their plates already, and TBH, I think I can only trust 3 friends with this kind of thing, though all of them would be cool with it, but two of them for certain wouldnt be very good at comforting, and the other I dont know well enough to lumber this stuff on them.
All my other friends would either be totally insensitive, totally useless to talk to, or would tell everybody on the planet and get it on the 9 o'clock news even if I told them not to tell anyone.
My GP did offer access to a concellor, maybe I should take that up, but its close to exam time already, and I feel like everything is happening at once at the moment, and seeking concelling is just one more thing to add to my list!
Argh!
I hate the way the cookie crumbles
Sorry to subject everyone to that rant, but Im sure somebody out there has the words I need to hear, I dont know what they are, but I need to hear something, i know that much, and writing this down has helped a lot in itself.
At the very least, i just need somebdy to tel me they share my pain, please?
:cry:
The problem is, I dont know what to do about this sudden discovery, I mean, I have no predjudices against anyone, and I've allways prided myself in my acceptance of everyone, no matter what their colour rank or sexuality, so its not that Im upset by my own preferences, but I know other people can be.
Especially here in Scotland, where homophobia seems to be a fashion statement, and I know that several of my extended family are extremly homophobic, one uncle in particular has very "colourful" views and words regarding homosexuals.
And Although I know my friends would be fine about it, and I know that my parents have told me strait out that whatever my preference, they dont mind, they'd be a bit miffed about the family name dieing if I decided I was gay but they wouldnt hold it against me, I know that if Im open about it, I will face a lot of predjudice from other people, and recieve a lot of flak about it, and it might be better just to keep quiet about it.
But I feel like I'm lieing to everyone if I just pretend it isnt there, and I really just need somebody to talk to about it, but I cant talk to my parents, I dont know why, I just dont think I can face them with this, even thoguh they are accepting, they have a lot of stuff on their plates already, and TBH, I think I can only trust 3 friends with this kind of thing, though all of them would be cool with it, but two of them for certain wouldnt be very good at comforting, and the other I dont know well enough to lumber this stuff on them.
All my other friends would either be totally insensitive, totally useless to talk to, or would tell everybody on the planet and get it on the 9 o'clock news even if I told them not to tell anyone.
My GP did offer access to a concellor, maybe I should take that up, but its close to exam time already, and I feel like everything is happening at once at the moment, and seeking concelling is just one more thing to add to my list!
Argh!
I hate the way the cookie crumbles
Sorry to subject everyone to that rant, but Im sure somebody out there has the words I need to hear, I dont know what they are, but I need to hear something, i know that much, and writing this down has helped a lot in itself.
At the very least, i just need somebdy to tel me they share my pain, please?
:cry: