but i hope my grandpa passes peacefully in his sleep this weekend. He has been in the hospital almost three weeks now is septic, has gone into congestive heart failure twice, and is simply suffering. He's 88 years old and he will never leave that hospital and his quality of life is gone. We talked earlier this week, it's probably the most peaceful conversation we have had. He is a very critical and a huge perfectionist. But, he actually told me he loved me, how proud he was with the way I am raising my son alone, and thank you for all the help I gave to him and grandma over the past year. I'm still not sure if I will call back and "say goodbye" because I would rather our last conversation being positive and loving. He knows I can't travel to see him. I would if I could and he just wants my health to improve. My heart is hanging very heavy this week. Monday was the anniversary of my dad's death, grandpa is going to die very soon, and next week is the anniversary of my dad's mom's death. I honestly wish August would disappear off the calender! So, if I have been off this week that is a good part of the reason. I wish I could be there for my mom and my grandma (they have been married for 64 years). But all I can do is offer support by phone. We are a very close family is why this is so hard. So, I am in one of those reflective type moods trying to remember all the good times I had with my loved ones, beating my stress out on the piano, and trying to deal with my own failing health. Fun times! I'm due for something to go right soon!!!