You are not a worthless PoS.
I absolutely guarantee that.
Sometimes things do go wrong around us. And it can be natural to conclude that we must be the ( main ) cause.
But that's just a trick of perspective. Everything you notice is indeed " centred " on you. But that's just because it is your life - your perception and your memory.
It doesn't mean you cause the problems. And they may not all even be problems, actually. It does depend on perspective.
Every human being is blessed with the miracle of a consciousness. A cluster of perspectives on the universe. Shared across our social structures, and irrigated by our arts, philosophy, science, literature, politics and economics ...
Unfortunately, the spider webs of social structure that surround us - families, neighbourhoods ,work teams, communities - can become entangled. Or can fray. Or break.
It can indeed feel like we are mucking everything up.
And from time to time we do - all of us - make mistakes. That's OK.
But really, no-one messes everything up. We simply aren't that important, or that influential. At the core of every one of us, there is the part that projects value and meaning onto the world. That part is the secret to changing everything around you.. maybe not in big ways. But re-structuring it all. Rebuilding the spider-web of your personality and life-style...
And if we do make some mistakes, all we need to try to do, is take some feedback from people. People who are neutral and able to observe objectively, and articulate what they have seen.
But don't just look for the consensus among your friends and acquaintances - it's not just about the common patterns.
It's about different people seeing different things. Giving you different pieces of the puzzle.
Try to value diversity, and broad networks. It's not a democracy as such. But we do need diversity.
Piece by piece, you can unpick the tangled knot of whatever is causing your concerns.
Everyone can. Though not everyone tries. Or succeeds.
We are too harsh on ourselves. And on each other. Reach out.
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