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I am starting to wonder what's wrong with me. I think I have some inate ability to fuck everything up, and alienate anyone who tries to get close to me. I feel so damn freaking lost and hella alone. I dont know what im doing anymore.
 

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Take a deep breath. Everyone goes through trying times like your going through. We all have different problems and finding the solution to these problems always aren't easy. Don't feel that way when you wake up in the morning. You need someone to guide you through some changes in your life, someone you can trust without alienating yourself from them. Things will work it just takes time, if it gets worse consult a doctor. Cheers.
 

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I am starting to wonder what's wrong with me. I think I have some inate ability to fuck everything up, and alienate anyone who tries to get close to me. I feel so damn freaking lost and hella alone. I dont know what im doing anymore.

You might want to consider why you are choosing an online name that includes the word "evil", too.

Never having met you, I can only go by what you say here. If I were inclined to wager, I'd bet that you have tried to live life on your own terms without considering the wants or needs of others. Some people can get away with this for years, but most cannot.
 

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I am starting to wonder what's wrong with me. I think I have some inate ability to fuck everything up, and alienate anyone who tries to get close to me. I feel so damn freaking lost and hella alone. I dont know what im doing anymore.

You sound like me after me and my ex broke up. Just a shot in the dark, but did you post this within a week of something REALLY bad happening in your relationship? Perhaps a breakup? I wondered if I had the same innate ability to fuck things up, but relationships are a two-way street. You have to be willing to work out problems, if the other person doesn't want to try, it's not you, it's them.

Besides, based on your pictures, you're quite a catch physically. :wink::biggrin1:
 
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Aww. :(

You sound depressed/frustrated. Learn what you can from any fuck-ups, don't beat yourself up - then move forward to something you enjoy and want to do. :)

Good luck, luv.
 

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commiserations
but as 'they' say, your better than that or how your feeling at this time
always a good time to spare a thought, at such times, for those in as bad circumstance
think, once over this period
drat ... starts all over again, good/bad, its an inevitability ..
 

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My life has ended on a couple of occasions. The wall was hard, thick and dark. I leaned against it until I could regain some strength. The strength came from the wall, and I actually became stronger than it.

PM me, Darling. I'd love to talk to you.
 

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My life has ended on a couple of occasions. The wall was hard, thick and dark. I leaned against it until I could regain some strength. The strength came from the wall, and I actually became stronger than it.

PM me, Darling. I'd love to talk to you.

All poetic and stuff....
 

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Gonna potentially spew either a bunch of bullshit or useful stuffs but anyway. I highly doubt anyone has, does or will know what they're doing in life. A certain percentage of everyone's life is left either up to luck, chance, math and science or (if you're spiritual) a higher being.

So all we really have is the hope that what we want will work out. Sure, some have an inflated since of self worth that helps them power through what they need to power through, some have statistics and facts to rely on and others have their spiritual beliefs but sooner or later we all hit that wall EllieP talked about.

All you have to do is investigate your problem online or IRL. 9 times out of 10 someone else has had the same or similar issues as you. Whether they're willing to talk about it is another story but you aren't alone in your issue.

And as far as i know, the first step to fixing a toaster is knowing your toaster is broken. Many and i say many people fuck up on that one step (and yeah it works for emotional problems too). Lost your keys? Where was the last place you put them? Don't know what you did with your companion cube? Look to the nearest evil robot? Got a snake in your boot? Well maybe you're a lovable sentient toy with a successful career.

So my overall point being...jambalaya. I've never had it but i'm sure its tasty. And while we're on the topic of bikes. Why does it seem that the thinner ones are more expensive? Are they made of adamantium or something? Cause if that were the case wouldn't they be much much more expensive?

Also, ketcup packets. Do they not bleed?

Hope i've helped. Good luck and finally...can i borrow your toaster?
 
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Go check out a therapist..and by that I dont mean a psychiatrist. A therapist that specializes in various issues, self worth, why we do the destructive things we do, etc etc. The hardest thing in the world is making the first call but I assure you it is an awesome thing to be able to talk to someone who has pretty much heard it all, will not judge you, will let you talk, etc etc...
The comments here are cool, but if you are posting something like that, a chat with a therapist could do wonders. Seriously do it...I swear after just the first session you will leave that office feeling so much better. You may have cried in it, screamed, argued, etc but after you will feel way better about yourself and things. I know a ton of people, including myself who are normal everyday functioning adults who just needed someone unbiased to talk to.
 

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You are not a worthless PoS.

I absolutely guarantee that.

Sometimes things do go wrong around us. And it can be natural to conclude that we must be the ( main ) cause.

But that's just a trick of perspective. Everything you notice is indeed " centred " on you. But that's just because it is your life - your perception and your memory.

It doesn't mean you cause the problems. And they may not all even be problems, actually. It does depend on perspective.

Every human being is blessed with the miracle of a consciousness. A cluster of perspectives on the universe. Shared across our social structures, and irrigated by our arts, philosophy, science, literature, politics and economics ...

Unfortunately, the spider webs of social structure that surround us - families, neighbourhoods ,work teams, communities - can become entangled. Or can fray. Or break.

It can indeed feel like we are mucking everything up.

And from time to time we do - all of us - make mistakes. That's OK.

But really, no-one messes everything up. We simply aren't that important, or that influential. At the core of every one of us, there is the part that projects value and meaning onto the world. That part is the secret to changing everything around you.. maybe not in big ways. But re-structuring it all. Rebuilding the spider-web of your personality and life-style...

And if we do make some mistakes, all we need to try to do, is take some feedback from people. People who are neutral and able to observe objectively, and articulate what they have seen.

But don't just look for the consensus among your friends and acquaintances - it's not just about the common patterns.

It's about different people seeing different things. Giving you different pieces of the puzzle.

Try to value diversity, and broad networks. It's not a democracy as such. But we do need diversity.

Piece by piece, you can unpick the tangled knot of whatever is causing your concerns.

Everyone can. Though not everyone tries. Or succeeds.

We are too harsh on ourselves. And on each other. Reach out.

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wow such great advice from everyone here! i hope the OP finds inner peace with herself and finds alternative ways to release stress and anger in many ways then one. Sometimes all you need is a shoulder to lean on, a ear to listen to you... or a little advise. you have all of those here, dont beat yourself up kid... you'll see everything will work out soon!
 
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Thanks every one. I appreciate the kind words and advice. Florida Free is right about a recent break up. I ended a really long term relationship recently, and also got into a pretty heated argument with a close friend a few months back. My ex is already living with someone, and seems really happy, and I miss the friend.

I was feeling a bit down, and drinking (bad I know), and listening to some kinda mopey music yesterday. I got on face book and saw a post from a guy I knew in HS that I wouldn't date that basically blasted my situation because I don't want to date anyone or be in a relationship, and said I was incapable of having anyone care for me, and said I was basically worthless. I guess I let it get to me. I know its not true, but IDK it still hurt.

Maybe this wasn't the place to post my feelings but I felt like crap last night and wasn't thinking clearly.
 

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I am starting to wonder what's wrong with me. I think I have some inate ability to fuck everything up, and alienate anyone who tries to get close to me. I feel so damn freaking lost and hella alone. I dont know what im doing anymore.

I like you
I know we have not talked very much but I definatly like you, you are I will say totally unique which is how people often describe me
 

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I like you
I know we have not talked very much but I definatly like you, you are I will say totally unique which is how people often describe me

Every snow flake is unique... But they are all snowflakes, just the same.

Every fingerprint is unique... But they are so similar it takes an expert to tell them apart.

No human being is anywhere near as different as they are alike.

We all suffer alike... We all have similar needs... Drives... Selfishness... Joys.... Just in subtly varying proportions and mixtures.

"Every soul is tender to the touch"
 

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Ah dude, please don't say this.

Life isn't easy and we all go through testing and trying times.

Best thing is please chat to someone; there will always be peaks and troughs. If everything was easy, we'd never learn from our mistakes.

And finally; screw everyone else and what they think, everyone nowadays has an opinion. Do what makes you feel happy and feels right!