Last friday was the day of my life... Well I lost my virginity yeahhh well that's cool, I finaly did it. Actualy, it wasn't a big deal, it kinda hurt, I dont know if I will ever do it again anyway. But it's not where I fuck up things. Ok, I didn't see my kinda boyfriend on friday (he had something to do) so I decide to go out with my best ''straight'' friend. Anyway we when out and got drunk. So he say I go to stay at your house, but before that, I told him that I'm still see the guy, which he didn't like, and I told him if I was still a virgin (among many talks)... anyhow, so back when we arrived home, we drank some more, and talk some more, and he start crying and said that I was he's best friend and he loved me... blablabla (my hart was upside down of such hapiness) we end up in bed, nude... and we start kissing. Fuck, it was wonderfull to be able to kiss the guy wich I loved all my life. So he end up taking my virginity, but honnestly, that was not the best sex, and I was a bit deceived. In the morning the door knock, it's Gabriel So he comes to surprise me, but I didn't expect him. So we kinda speak in the entrance, he find me weird and ask if everything is OK, I said yeah I just got drank last night. But then, my best friend (last night lover) comes out naked, and Gabriel looks at him, then he just come in the back of me and hold me... So Gabriel, just look at me like I have never anyone looking at me like that and left. So I tell Louis, why the fuck you did that for, he just laugh and said that he doesn't like the guy. Anyway, he then take a shower, I'm all fuck up in my head, cause I didn't want to hurt Gabriel, and then Louis comes out of the shower and just go after. So I try to call Gabriel and no answer. For the day, the day after and so on Sunday I go see him at his work, and he told me to get the fuck out, and he have is eyes full of water. I get out, I'm about to cry myself. I call Louis, wich also didn't answer me for two days. I talk to him, he's cold and said he is with is GF and he will call me back. But doesn't. So finaly I see him today, and I say what the fuck, you dont answer me, dont talk to me... He said, hey man, I'm not your BF, I was just drunk. I said, you told me that you wanted to take my virginity and be the one to do so. He said yeah, so, with a fucking arrongance and I dont even recognice my best friend wich I loved for so long, and withen a second, he doesn't mean anything to me. I said so, well, you were not, actualy Gabriel did it (it was a lie) He said you lied to me, I said yeah, and man he can fuck, you dont come close to his ankle. He then insult me and told me he dont want to see me anymore. I fuck up everything. And what goods come out of my comming out... I know it's part of my fault and I miss Gabriel so much, and it's all because of me. But I will not called neither of them ever again.