I Have A Confession

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I am not new to this site but not sure if this is the right place to post this so here goes. I recently lost 20 lbs with diet and exercise. I have a goal of 20 more. I am just starting to get confident in my skin...so here’s the confession. i an 44 and have been married for 23 years. My wife and I were virgins when we married. Due to some health issues she has had, sex is not happening and hasn’t for almost 4 years. Lately I have wanted to experience some m2m contact, but I’m not sure how to find a willing teacher. My wife is aware and understanding, as long as she doesn’t hear the details and I’m safe. With that said, I live in Va centered between D.C and Charlottesville and would be willing to travel up to an hour.

so my questions are am I too old to start something new?
Is this just a phase like a midlife crisis?
 

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Not sure why everyone is welcoming you back, but I guess that is in order? Welcome back.

On to your questions, maybe with some answers that could help??? First, no, I don't think you are too late to try. Second, I think someone suggested personal ads or something. I think there are many online classified sites, but you could also start a thread on this site, posting what you are looking for and in the area - like jo buds or looking for first m2m,write up a little about yourself or not, what you are looking for, kind of like you did here.

I started myself out of curiosity, I think a bit influenced by reading stories about m2m or mmf. I was younger and visited sex shops that had video booths with glory holes. I don't think I was even old enough to be allowed in there. I kind of was a little surprised that someone would be doing that, but it also excited me lots to be touching another cock, stroking them. Eventually I got up the nerve to put my hard cock through and was blown away by the feel of another guy stroking me and then even more when I felt their mouth on me. Yes, I came very quickly! I just knew I wanted to try that too, at least the sucking idea, giving a blowjob but not having them cum in my mouth. I loved the feel and discovery of holding and jerking different cocks, from semi hard to rock hard, but still a little soft and spongy, warm, feeling them pulse, swell, and then eventually cum as I stroked them and also played with their balls as some of the gh's were large enough to have them fit. Later guys actually asked if they could come in the booth with me. That was another level, watching them, not only feeling them, suck on me, letting me cum in their mouths, tasting and swallowing my cum. I did this off and on through college, then eventually stopped.

Later on in life, the desire to do that again came on strong. I was older as well, but remember most of the guys that I met with before were older too. I was lucky enough to have an area that had a reputation of being a cruising area where guys would go and park to meet other guys. That is how I mostly met them. A couple of times while traveling out of town I used a website to find someone. Personally I am only into mutual jo and oral. I haven't let someone cum in my mouth and swallow, yet, but I think one guy did accidentally cum a little in my mouth as he started cumming as he was pulling back out. I really want to try that too, but also am not pursuing a lot,like I haven't put out a message on a board or even a thread here. Maybe I will.

I stopped for a bit and then started having c2c sessions, skype mostly, and really enjoying doing that, stroking with and for other guys, cumming together, but now have that itch again, to hold another cock, feel it's warmth, hold it and watch it grow, slowly and softly stroke it, then as I play with their balls go down and suck on it. I think I will let them cum in my mouth, it is really something I want to try.

As for safety, I am healthy, and the guys that I have connected with were also, or so they said they are tested regularly, or are very discreet and aren't with a lot of guys. And I haven't really had other's cum in my mouth or swallowed. But I have tasted precum - I really like the way it tastes and feels. And tasting my own cum only reinforces and adds to my desire to try that and make someone feel the way I do when I cum in their mouths, we will both enjoy that experience.
 

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I don't think there's a time limit on that sort of thing. Or at least not automatically. Ageism does exist and from what i've heard it is kind of a deal in the gay community. Then again, i've also heard some men have fetishes for older men in the gay community. So depends on what you're after i think. Again, keep in mind if you haven't already that it doesn't matter what community it is there will be aholes in it. And not the good kind.

Also, it could be a midlife crisis. Only way to fully find out if it is or not is to either explore it, talk to a doctor or both. Doing so as safely as you can.
 

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I don't think there's a time limit on that sort of thing. Or at least not automatically. Ageism does exist and from what i've heard it is kind of a deal in the gay community. Then again, i've also heard some men have fetishes for older men in the gay community. So depends on what you're after i think. Again, keep in mind if you haven't already that it doesn't matter what community it is there will be aholes in it. And not the good kind.

Also, it could be a midlife crisis. Only way to fully find out if it is or not is to either explore it, talk to a doctor or both. Doing so as safely as you can.
Thank you for the advice
 
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I am not new to this site but not sure if this is the right place to post this so here goes. I recently lost 20 lbs with diet and exercise. I have a goal of 20 more. I am just starting to get confident in my skin...so here’s the confession. i an 44 and have been married for 23 years. My wife and I were virgins when we married. Due to some health issues she has had, sex is not happening and hasn’t for almost 4 years. Lately I have wanted to experience some m2m contact, but I’m not sure how to find a willing teacher. My wife is aware and understanding, as long as she doesn’t hear the details and I’m safe. With that said, I live in Va centered between D.C and Charlottesville and would be willing to travel up to an hour.

so my questions are am I too old to start something new?
Is this just a phase like a midlife crisis?
"Confession" 'eh? Suggest ou see a priest, your prayers may bE answered. Do repor back on "Penance"
 

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so my questions are am I too old to start something new?
Is this just a phase like a midlife crisis?[/QUOTE]

Not at all. You are also in a perfect location. Tell you what, head over to Frederick MD and visit that little ABS out on Rt 40. Your midlife crisis will turn into a midlife suckfest. All kidding aside. No, you are not too late. Just be careful and as others suggested put out some type of online profile if you are comfortable with that.

Chance are you will end up with another married dude looking for the same thing. Yea... I know lots of negative feedback on this subject but if you are thinking about it a LOT, and I would guess you are. Turn your fantasy into an experience. Life is too short not to.
 

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My confession is that when I was 18 and a senior in high school, my friend and I got very drunk, and I pressured him to have sex while we were in my car. We drove to a gay bar in our home city of Houston. It was called the Old Plantation. We were in the parking lot, and we fogged up the windows. There were some knock, knocks on the windows, perhaps from some guys who were trying to warn us. We ignored them, and the next knocks were from the Houston Police.

Like an 18-year old idiot, I opened the car door which revealed he and I had our dicks out. We were arrested and taken to jail for the charge of “homo conduct.” Unfortunately, this incident forever poisoned my relationship with my best friend. I was told his mother called my mother after the incident and was ugly to my mom. I didn’t know this until years later.

Interestingly enough, we now live in the same city. I haven’t had any contact with him, but I feel like I should apologize for forcing sex back then. ‍♂️ We were teenagers then.
 

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so my questions are am I too old to start something new?
Is this just a phase like a midlife crisis?

Not at all. You are also in a perfect location. Tell you what, head over to Frederick MD and visit that little ABS out on Rt 40. Your midlife crisis will turn into a midlife suckfest. All kidding aside. No, you are not too late. Just be careful and as others suggested put out some type of online profile if you are comfortable with that.

Chance are you will end up with another married dude looking for the same thing. Yea... I know lots of negative feedback on this subject but if you are thinking about it a LOT, and I would guess you are. Turn your fantasy into an experience. Life is too short not to.[/QUOTE]
Thanks for the response. I definitely want to experience new things, just trying to find the right safe person.
 
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