I really can't relate to the humiliation stuff, but all women think about the "rape" fantasy and it's much discussed in gender studies courses.
I agree with the feminists who insist that it properly needs to be renamed a "ravishment fantasy" because no woman ever fantasizes that a man that she doesn't actually want to have sex with rapes her. She always fantasizes about some stud that she actually wants, so the fantasy is about some guy a woman desires desiring her back, perhaps roughly or violently and without asking permission, which is a turn-on, if you actually want that guy, which would remove the "rape" part of the "rape." Also, judeo-christian guilt comes into play because if a guy that you burn for takes you without permission, then you aren't a slut for giving it up for him, he made you enjoy yourself on his cock. You can be a good girl and still get to fuck the hot guy if he takes you forcefully. How hot is that?
And that's not really rape, it's a convenient way to get around the societal guilt-trip that is placed upon women's sexuality.
Also, I don't think it's weird to be a straight woman and enjoy gay porn. The guys are usually really hot, they usually enjoy all of it (although I usually can spot gay-for-pay) and they usually don't bother with stupid scenarios, or "sexy face," or really fake orgasms, all porn pet peeves of mine.