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When I get angry, like i am now, it's soo hard to type, im so fuckin furious. I get angry, or n this case furious, and i just feel the need to destroy whatever is in my grasp.
I have had several jobs in my life, several good ones, and several shitty ones, but i have never hated a job as much as i do my current job, just going their makes me want to vomit with rage.
I wake up this morning and have to drive 30 minutes across town to pick up my brother... my lazy drug addict brother... He hadta go over to his friends house the night previous so that he could get some drugs, do some drugs, and destroy his mind with drugs... So pick him up and drive him home, but we have to goto the mall, to buy some clothes and stuff. And since he has no job,m and spends any and all money he has on drugs He doesnt have a car, so i have to drive, And I'm running on empty, so im irritated.
I don't like to spend money, its the only thing that gets to me on my conscience... So I'm looking around, 60 dolalrs for a pair of jeans, 40 for a tshirt, and not even things i find slightly neat or cool, so I don't want to spend money on shit i dont want or need. So my brother comes down on me "you can buy whatever gay shit you want, you can goto your gay stores, and buy your gay shit" ... I'm not literally gay, but he thinks of it as an insult, and it really irritates me when ppl use the word gay, or queer, to describe something they dont like. I'm getting angrier and angrier with every second.
So i am trying to get home in a hurry, so i can have some sort of a day before i go and do a job i hate with every fiber of my being... We are there 3 hours, and my brother is the reason why...
So i get to stand in a place i hate, seeing ppl i hate, before i goto a job i hate, and do work that i hate... All this piling up on me is just getting to me... so we are standing in a store, and i tell him i need to get home, and he beats around
He had to goto the mall to begin with for a drug deal, and he had to stop and have a 40 minute conversation with everyone in the fuyckin mall... So i try to calmly tell him im in a hurry, but he doesnt seem to give a fuck... so i tell him im leaving, i come home, and am just furious, i just feel the need to destroy anything and everything i can get my hands on. So i grab a few bats i made on a wood lathe and beat the hell out of my floor, until one of the bats is cracked and the other is in splinters.
I just want to destroy, i just want to smash and break and destroy i can't help myself... And know its really stupid, cuz ill hafta spend mney that dont want to spend replacing the things i break, but i cant help it...
I've seen a shrink, but she wasn't help at all.
If i get angry, aside from destroyin things, i have to listen to my music, or play my gutar, i hafta take it out vocally, or anything, i have to vent...
I have had several jobs in my life, several good ones, and several shitty ones, but i have never hated a job as much as i do my current job, just going their makes me want to vomit with rage.
I wake up this morning and have to drive 30 minutes across town to pick up my brother... my lazy drug addict brother... He hadta go over to his friends house the night previous so that he could get some drugs, do some drugs, and destroy his mind with drugs... So pick him up and drive him home, but we have to goto the mall, to buy some clothes and stuff. And since he has no job,m and spends any and all money he has on drugs He doesnt have a car, so i have to drive, And I'm running on empty, so im irritated.
I don't like to spend money, its the only thing that gets to me on my conscience... So I'm looking around, 60 dolalrs for a pair of jeans, 40 for a tshirt, and not even things i find slightly neat or cool, so I don't want to spend money on shit i dont want or need. So my brother comes down on me "you can buy whatever gay shit you want, you can goto your gay stores, and buy your gay shit" ... I'm not literally gay, but he thinks of it as an insult, and it really irritates me when ppl use the word gay, or queer, to describe something they dont like. I'm getting angrier and angrier with every second.
So i am trying to get home in a hurry, so i can have some sort of a day before i go and do a job i hate with every fiber of my being... We are there 3 hours, and my brother is the reason why...
So i get to stand in a place i hate, seeing ppl i hate, before i goto a job i hate, and do work that i hate... All this piling up on me is just getting to me... so we are standing in a store, and i tell him i need to get home, and he beats around
He had to goto the mall to begin with for a drug deal, and he had to stop and have a 40 minute conversation with everyone in the fuyckin mall... So i try to calmly tell him im in a hurry, but he doesnt seem to give a fuck... so i tell him im leaving, i come home, and am just furious, i just feel the need to destroy anything and everything i can get my hands on. So i grab a few bats i made on a wood lathe and beat the hell out of my floor, until one of the bats is cracked and the other is in splinters.
I just want to destroy, i just want to smash and break and destroy i can't help myself... And know its really stupid, cuz ill hafta spend mney that dont want to spend replacing the things i break, but i cant help it...
I've seen a shrink, but she wasn't help at all.
If i get angry, aside from destroyin things, i have to listen to my music, or play my gutar, i hafta take it out vocally, or anything, i have to vent...