Last night I went out with a male co-worker to a local bar, there we met these 2 hotties (from out of town) at the bar, they both were wearing mini-skirts and they made it a point to show us they were not wearing panties. I wish I could blame the booze but I knew what I was doing the whole time. We walked them to there hotel and just as we were walking away my buddy yelled to them how about giving us a show, they of course said sure. So after not much coaxing I agreed to go to there room with my buddy (thinking the whole time this is not a good idea turn around now). We got up there and they put on a show for us, my buddy right away got into it and soon he was naked in the middle of them, they kept calling me over to join them and I just stood there finally my buddy says get him over here he's got a big one, the girls tried to pull me in to join them and I pulled back enough so they let me go and this happeneg a few times with the whole time thinking again this is not a good idea. I got tired of this and said what if I just jackoff for you. (I really thought they would stop bothering me) So like school children they kneeled down in front on me and said well lets see you, so not thinking I dropped my pants and began jacking off while my buddy did them doggy. Well I shot my load on there tits and they did not preform oral or anything on me nor I on them(except for cumming on there tits) and ONLY then did they rub my balls. I've been married 12 years and I've NEVER done anything EVER, or put myself in a situation like this before. I know it wouldn't change anything if I could blame the booze and even then that would be a weak lame excuse. I knew the whole time what I was doing and kept listening to that vioce in my head and I ignored it. My wife gets back Friday from a week in cabo with her girlfriends. Now my questions is do I tell her and ruin 12 married and 15 years total or do I feel like crap and somehow live with it. Is it better my wife doesn't know. Any imput would help. Feeling like shit.