I lost 27 friends to Aids back during the Plague, many of them irreplaceable. I've only met 2 other people who have lost so many. It really affects and effects you and changes your viewpoint on life. I often wish I had someone to talk with about this who went through the same thing, but most everybody else died or the ones who survived weren't out yet and didn't know many gay people. Virtually my whole circle of friends back then were gay men. Now I only have one gay friend I do anything with anymore. I do belong to a gay club, but I don't do anything with any of the people there apart from the club. I was only able to put up photos of the deceased in my apt. last year. I just couldn't deal with it for a long time and kept the memories buried. Anyone had a similar fate?