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Ok so here is the thing. Am into girls and love having sex with them. I never had a relationship with a guy nor do I have any feelings towards men. I can't see my self making out with a guy or so but for some reason I love dick. I have been sucked off by guys like 3 times but that's about it. But when I Wana jerk off gay pirn turns me on 10 times straight sex I have no idea why. I love the idea of seeing a guy fucking another guy it makes me horny but in real life I don't see my self kissing or having a relationship with a guy. I have tried to fuck my self a few times and I love it and I tried to hook up with guys few times but couldn't get my self to do anything and just run away.
Am so confused
 

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I was in your position about 12 years ago. I had led a fairly straight sex life apart from a brief fling with a friend in my teens. But I was starting to get more and more turned on by cock, firstly in straight porn and then, as it took hold of me, gay porn. Eventually I got to a kind of fork in the road where I had to make a decision. One path was to deny my feelings and carry on a straight life. The other, the one I took, was to embrace it. Yes, I was nervous at first but the first time a guy fucked me I knew I was on the right path. I felt released from the shackles. After that first fuck I had this bizarre, irrational feeling that other people would notice or be aware of what I'd done, but trust me, they didn't, the world kept spinning and life carried on. And I've certainly had no regrets.
No-one can tell you which path to take, that's down to you. Sometimes it takes just a little courage to overcome that urge to run. Good luck.
 

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Know that your experience is completely normal, even when others who experience it don't speak about it openly.
Also know that your confusion is partially (not fully) coming from your desire to label your sexuality, instead of just feeling it and not trying to identify it. But clearly this is difficult, because for many of us, we want a term or a community to identify with.
My wisest suggestion would be to not force yourself into anything. If you are trying to fuck with guys just to "try and see" if you feel anything, don't do that. Wait until a guy actually turns you on, and your desire to be with them is STRONGER than your curiosity. Perhaps you're meeting men on apps - not the best way to experience a natural sexual connection.

It's completely fine to want sex with girls but also enjoy watching guys have sex. There's likely a mental barrier that prohibits you from fully enjoying participating in sexual activities with guys, like nervousness, confusion, expectation, overthinking. A less-forced encounter may be a better route to try.

Be happy. Good luck!
 

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Ok so here is the thing. Am into girls and love having sex with them. I never had a relationship with a guy nor do I have any feelings towards men. I can't see my self making out with a guy or so but for some reason I love dick. I have been sucked off by guys like 3 times but that's about it. But when I Wana jerk off gay pirn turns me on 10 times straight sex I have no idea why. I love the idea of seeing a guy fucking another guy it makes me horny but in real life I don't see my self kissing or having a relationship with a guy. I have tried to fuck my self a few times and I love it and I tried to hook up with guys few times but couldn't get my self to do anything and just run away.
Am so confused

Fully agree and understand your feelings; I am the same way.
 
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As a bisexual man, I have pretty much only ever watched gay porn and some trans porn. I like women in real life, but when it comes to porn I just don’t find women having sex to be something that turns me on
 

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I have the same experience but from the other side. I'm sexually attracted to men but I've never felt love for a guy. I had feelings only for girls up to now and at times im sexually attracted to women but not as much as with guys. So confusing.
 

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i do feel the same way. I got multiple gay encounters, and gay porn makes me much more horny. Still cant really imagine relationships or kissing or love with guy. Not yet solved this. but after LPSG much more comfortable addmitting to myself that i am more into man. Though i didnt leave hope to try with girls) Wish luck to all like us)
 

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Bro same sometimes i like to watch men's nude but in real life i like girls. I don't have any feelings for men or thoughts in real life...i think i explore so much gay content in internet. That's why my interest changes lol..i should stop watching gay porn because that's not me
 

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This is a real good forum for all of us to see we are not alone and are experiencing the same feelings.
agreed, this used to really confuse me, but it appears to be way more common than I ever realized.
 

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agreed, this used to really confuse me, but it appears to be way more common than I ever realized.

Thanks for your comment ............... those are exactly my sentiments. I couldn't figure why, however, knowing now that I am not soooooo alone on this, really helps
 
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Same exact thing with me man. I just got married this year and I’ve only been with women (honestly my wife is my only sexual partner because we’ve been together since high school) but I’ve grow to be sexually attracted to men and cock myself. I’ve only had 1 experience with a man and it was pretty recently in a gym shower where we sucked each other’s cocks. I don’t think I liked it as much as I thought I would, but I think the guilt for “cheating” ruined the experience.

But now I have a few hot older men that I’ve almost scheduled gym sessions with so we can shower at the same time and admire each other’s bodies, and they’re also married, so clearly it happens more than you’d think! I’ve gotten really close to being physical with these gym guys, but I haven’t yet. It’s all just peeking and obvious mutual admiring of each other.

At the very least, take advantage of this site to really express that side of you and that desire you feel for men. That’s what I do; I get in moods where I post tons of pics of myself naked and the attention makes me feel great and I like giving that attention to others I’m attracted to. Feel free to Message me if you want to talk more
 

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Same exact thing with me man. I just got married this year and I’ve only been with women (honestly my wife is my only sexual partner because we’ve been together since high school) but I’ve grow to be sexually attracted to men and cock myself. I’ve only had 1 experience with a man and it was pretty recently in a gym shower where we sucked each other’s cocks. I don’t think I liked it as much as I thought I would, but I think the guilt for “cheating” ruined the experience.

But now I have a few hot older men that I’ve almost scheduled gym sessions with so we can shower at the same time and admire each other’s bodies, and they’re also married, so clearly it happens more than you’d think! I’ve gotten really close to being physical with these gym guys, but I haven’t yet. It’s all just peeking and obvious mutual admiring of each other.

At the very least, take advantage of this site to really express that side of you and that desire you feel for men. That’s what I do; I get in moods where I post tons of pics of myself naked and the attention makes me feel great and I like giving that attention to others I’m attracted to. Feel free to Message me if you want to talk more

What a GREAT response ...................

My wife was the only women I ever slept with. I loved her deeply, both emotionally and sexually, However, she passed away last year from a terminal illness, after a 42 yr marriage. We met in Grade 7, dated in high school and university, then eventually got married.

All of my initial sexual experiences were with guys. There was nothing emotional about our encounters. It was guys sucking, jerking and fucking - pure physical. In fact, one of my partners was "doing" one of the "hottest jock guys in high school" and he had a long term girl friend. It was funny cause when I passed "Mr Hot" in the halls, holding his girlfriends hand, I knew where that hand had been.

My wife knew. Our rules was absolute safety and discretion. She "caught me" jerking to naked men. We incorporated both "straight" and "gay" sex toys in our relationship.

I had a number of encounters during the course of our marriage. I always selected married men.

As you mature, gain experience and come to understand yourself better, you will overcome some of the guilt. I did not have LPSG to have honest, truthful discussions like this. I have NO regrets in my "double life"

Start a Conversation directly with me if you want help in working through this. Happy to mentor. I never had that; had to figure it out on my own.

BTW, we're both living in Canada !! Whadda think of that, eh !!!
 
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Ok so here is the thing. Am into girls and love having sex with them. I never had a relationship with a guy nor do I have any feelings towards men. I can't see my self making out with a guy or so but for some reason I love dick. I have been sucked off by guys like 3 times but that's about it. But when I Wana jerk off gay pirn turns me on 10 times straight sex I have no idea why. I love the idea of seeing a guy fucking another guy it makes me horny but in real life I don't see my self kissing or having a relationship with a guy. I have tried to fuck my self a few times and I love it and I tried to hook up with guys few times but couldn't get my self to do anything and just run away.
Am so confused
I have a couple of observations.

First, straight porn is filled with ridiculous overacting, bad lighting, and it's always the same - missionary to cowgirl to reverse cowgirl to doggy to facial. You might get some anal in there just for a change of pace but all in all straight porn is pretty lame and boring.

Secondly, you're in the frame of mind that gay sex is somewhat taboo, risky, wouldn't want anyone to find out I like it kind of perspective. That makes it hotter, and the fact that no one is mugging for the camera like the women in straight porn do makes it more realistic. The fact that you've had guys go down on you gives you a frame of reference when viewing those scenes on the screen.

Whether you take it any further is up to you, but baby steps. I was strictly an oral top for years before I gave up the ass.
 

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Perhaps it's me being jaded, but as I've gotten older I find myself seeking and getting off on gay porn. Watching muscular hunks get themselves off or fucking other dudes just gets me off way more than watching chics getting fucked does these days. I've blown loads to both plenty of times but I find myself increasingly resorting to gay porn to get off. Plus the explosion and degree of cum with gay porn is unparalleled for me, especially when I fantasize about anal. I know that this fetish is real when in the hierarchy of sexual festishes puts tran porn ahead of hetero porn for me with fucking men at the very top.