Same exact thing with me man. I just got married this year and I’ve only been with women (honestly my wife is my only sexual partner because we’ve been together since high school) but I’ve grow to be sexually attracted to men and cock myself. I’ve only had 1 experience with a man and it was pretty recently in a gym shower where we sucked each other’s cocks. I don’t think I liked it as much as I thought I would, but I think the guilt for “cheating” ruined the experience.
But now I have a few hot older men that I’ve almost scheduled gym sessions with so we can shower at the same time and admire each other’s bodies, and they’re also married, so clearly it happens more than you’d think! I’ve gotten really close to being physical with these gym guys, but I haven’t yet. It’s all just peeking and obvious mutual admiring of each other.
At the very least, take advantage of this site to really express that side of you and that desire you feel for men. That’s what I do; I get in moods where I post tons of pics of myself naked and the attention makes me feel great and I like giving that attention to others I’m attracted to. Feel free to Message me if you want to talk more
What a GREAT response ...................
My wife was the only women I ever slept with. I loved her deeply, both emotionally and sexually, However, she passed away last year from a terminal illness, after a 42 yr marriage. We met in Grade 7, dated in high school and university, then eventually got married.
All of my initial sexual experiences were with guys. There was nothing emotional about our encounters. It was guys sucking, jerking and fucking - pure physical. In fact, one of my partners was "doing" one of the "hottest jock guys in high school" and he had a long term girl friend. It was funny cause when I passed "Mr Hot" in the halls, holding his girlfriends hand, I knew where that hand had been.
My wife knew. Our rules was absolute safety and discretion. She "caught me" jerking to naked men. We incorporated both "straight" and "gay" sex toys in our relationship.
I had a number of encounters during the course of our marriage. I always selected married men.
As you mature, gain experience and come to understand yourself better, you will overcome some of the guilt. I did not have LPSG to have honest, truthful discussions like this. I have NO regrets in my "double life"
Start a Conversation directly with me if you want help in working through this. Happy to mentor. I never had that; had to figure it out on my own.
BTW, we're both living in Canada !! Whadda think of that, eh !!!