Question 1- Have you ever said "I love you"? Were you really in love when you said it?
I've loved many people in my lifetime, and I've told most of them. I love easily, and I don't just apply the feeling to romantic partners, I apply it to friends, family, others I care about, and occasionally to virtual strangers. I find most people easy to love, and certain people to be especially lovable.
To me, love (at its best) is caring about someone's best interests, and being willing to sacrifice some stuff of your own, if necessary, to bring about what they need. It is spending time with a person, and paying attention to him or her. It is forgiveness, understanding, and acceptance. It is being on the side of the person you love when the world is tearing them down,
not adding insult to injury by tearing them down yourself (as I've seen many people do). It is gentle honesty. It is believing in someone, even when they can't seem to believe in themselves.
As much as I have loved, I have spent most of the last 17 years believing that there was no such thing as being "In Love." Until recently, I chalked those kinds of experiences up to hormones, plain and simple. There was lust, and there was love. No need to confuse one with the other -- to do so just fucked things up, or so I believed.
But the reason I believed that was because I had a broken heart. My heart had repeatedly been broken, and it was safer to believe romantic love didn't exist than to admit it did, and I would never have it (because I was so committed to remaining in a relationship that could never make me, or my partner, happy).
When I was in my cocoon last fall as Chrysalis, a wise person said to me, "Being in love is subjective. If someone says they are in love, then they are." Interestingly, two men I met on this site philosophically helped me believe in love again, and I ended up falling deeply
in love with one of them (Artfulwilly).
Countless people have said "I love you" to me, and I've said it back countless times (and almost always meant it).
But I think I've only been
in love twice in my life. Once as a teenager, and again now.
But now that I've got my head on straighter, I can see that I've never fallen out of love with the guy I loved so many years ago. And I still love many of the partners I've had.
Question 2- What is love to you? Do you think you can love more than one person throughout your life? Can you fall out of love?
To me, love is not exclusive -- I am perfectly capable of loving more than one person at any given time. This is a very hard concept for some people to understand, but NIC_160 already eloquently made some points about it, so I won't rehash what he said. I'll just applaud it.
I am committed to Artfulwilly as my Partner and feel closer to him than any man I've ever known. I have no desire at this time (and may not ever) to have another lover, because he fulfills everything I could possibly want or need. But does this mean I love him and
only him? No. It just means I love him the most out of everybody. And I am sanely (not madly!):wink:
in love with him.
Can you fall out of love? Yes, I think you can, but I think you can also make the choice to stay in love. I don't think falling out of love is inevitable, nor do I think diminishing sexual gratification in a relationship is inevitable.
I used the following analogy once when talking with Artful:
I have been masturbating for over 20 years, and I am not at all tired of fucking myself. Obviously, when I have a partner, I don't need to masturbate as much, but overall throughout my life, my sexual needs have remained pretty consistent.
If I don't have to get tired of fucking myself, then why am I obligated to get tired of fucking a specific other person? The answer is, I'm
not. It's a matter of choice.
During my marriage with my ex, there were a number of times when our sexual relationship virtually disappeared, only to come back later, sometimes in different forms.
But every time we stopped having sex, it wasn't because we were tired of the sex. It was because we had emotional issues with each other outside of the bedroom -- resentments, hurts, etc. and because of those, we didn't feel as comfortable being intimate.
My ex and I have since discussed a lot of this (we're still great friends) and realized that during the times when we weren't having sex much, we were still individually getting off as often as we needed to (more often for me than for him).
Anyway, the rambling point I'm trying to make is this: I believe that in couples, when sexual desire or feeling "in love" fades, it is a
symptom of one or more other problems, not a problem in and of itself.
A lot of people would say Artfulwilly and I are being naive, but we don't think so -- we truly believe that if we love each other according to the true definition of love, accept each other and keep the way between us clear of resentment and conflict, then we will just as naturally stay
in love.