Thank you all for your advice

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The reason i only have access to a computer here is because my mum will not buy one, i cant afford one, I would use a friends but to be honest i lost a lot of my friends when i left school since most of them got into drugs and i didn't want to. Its a vital thing i need to keep in contact with my family back in Spain

. It would never be a main factor for me wanting to be with him.
We spent a whole day together and talked it through and decided that we would give it another go, I know it could be a mistake but we both need each other as we have not been the same since we split. We had a really good day and i feel great and i saw him smile for the first time in awhile

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