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I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this type of thing, but I just kind of realized today how incredibly difficult it's become for me to make meaningful friendships in the last few years. I'm 24 now, and many of my friends have moved away, married off, are busy with work, etc... I just don't have any particularly deep male friends anymore.
Being gay, I'm really not sure whether I'm looking for a friend or a boyfriend. To be honest, being in a relationship scares me. I've actually never been in one before. Never had sex either. It's all of my own choice though. I was raised in a religious family, and so those beliefs have shaped me into the prude I am today. I try to find intimacy in friendship with others, but I think I'm getting my feelings mixed up. Is the intimacy I'm looking for an intimacy that can only be found in a relationship? Or am I looking for someone who I can trust and love as a friend?
I'm so confused right now.
A couple years ago, I lost my best friend to suicide, and I think it really messed me up. I've been desperate for intimacy since then. Desperate for someone I can share my thoughts with, who I can be myself with, who I can be open and honest with. I just don't know what to do. I'm so lost and broken at this point.
Has anyone else dealt with this kind of issue / frustration? Has anyone else had a hard time making new friends / finding a boyfriend?
Being gay, I'm really not sure whether I'm looking for a friend or a boyfriend. To be honest, being in a relationship scares me. I've actually never been in one before. Never had sex either. It's all of my own choice though. I was raised in a religious family, and so those beliefs have shaped me into the prude I am today. I try to find intimacy in friendship with others, but I think I'm getting my feelings mixed up. Is the intimacy I'm looking for an intimacy that can only be found in a relationship? Or am I looking for someone who I can trust and love as a friend?
I'm so confused right now.
A couple years ago, I lost my best friend to suicide, and I think it really messed me up. I've been desperate for intimacy since then. Desperate for someone I can share my thoughts with, who I can be myself with, who I can be open and honest with. I just don't know what to do. I'm so lost and broken at this point.
Has anyone else dealt with this kind of issue / frustration? Has anyone else had a hard time making new friends / finding a boyfriend?