I meet guys for some action, but it happens so rarely and I really hate myself for it. Just because I want something more than jerking off I do arrange a meeting with a guy to suck me off. Today it happened at the 5th time. OMG, where have been my brains. I really want to have sex with girls... and girls only but too shy to offer something to them... probably because I had action with guys only (oral sex and wanking). And afraid, if I fail.. ((( argh... argh....argh.... so angry.. Why do I keep doing that?