I don't need any lectures or rants or flames because I'm already beating myself up horrendously. This was quite seriously the lowest moment in my entire life and I am scared. I had a random hookup with a guy from out of town. I topped him bareback. It only lasted about 5 minutes (because I realized OH CRAP! What am I doing?!). He was married and had only done this one other time. Aside from that time he swore he was monogamous. No fluids were exchanged and he insisted that he was clean of any and all std's. He seems as wary as I was when we discussed our std status. Yes, I know. Don't give me the lectures. It was stupid and cruel. Not only was it my first actual "fuck" (I've received a couple of blow jobs), but I helped a guy cheat. I feel horrible, but that is the price I am paying. I just have a question or two. Please just answer without guilt trips. I'm already nauseated and sick. I can hardly eat. 1. Assuming he was POZ (even though he insisted he wasn't), what are the chances that I became infected? 2. How soon can I be tested? 3. Where can I be tested, and how much will it cost? 4. What sort of time frame am I looking at for results? 5. How can I do this anonymously or without insurance and medical companies finding out? 6. If I get positive results... what then? I'm just really scared. It wasn't even that great. I wasn't sure whether I was bi or straight, but I quickly learned that in reality, gay promiscuity just doesn't do it for me. The idea of gay sex turns me on, but in the moment itself... it just wasn't fulfilling. Thanks P.S. This happened 12 days ago.