I Think I Want To Quit Pe.

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I've been obsessed with trying to grow my penis for over 10 years now, hell I even kept a paper journal when I started. I've been getting depressed lately, in a funk. I've done everything I could think of from pumping to pills to jelqing to weird stuff. I believe I've stayed about the same size the entire time. I've always felt inadequate, this is probably due to my first girlfriend not enjoying sex at all. I'm a shorter guy so people's expectations are low and I usually surprise anyone who gave me a chance, since the first girl all others were happy with me. I feel like I've spent a ton of time masturbating and trying pe and it's not been healthy. My wife can't seem to keep up with my libido, but nobody ever could,and she's been the best I've ever had. However; I more often than not take care of myself sexually. My obsession with size takes/has taken a lot of my free time and looking back I really wish I could have done something more constructive. I believe my size is adequate and I'm very good in bed. I need to stop worrying about penis size and focus on more important things. I'm going to pack it all up tomorrow and keep it from myself for a while and see how I feel. Maybe work out instead.
 
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I've been obsessed with trying to grow my penis for over 10 years now, hell I even kept a paper journal when I started. I've been getting depressed lately, in a funk. I've done everything I could think of from pumping to pills to jelqing to weird stuff. I believe I've stayed about the same size the entire time. I've always felt inadequate, this is probably due to my first girlfriend not enjoying sex at all. I'm a shorter guy so people's expectations are low and I usually surprise anyone who gave me a chance, since the first girl all others were happy with me. I feel like I've spent a ton of time masturbating and trying pe and it's not been healthy. My wife can't seem to keep up with my libido, but nobody ever could,and she's been the best I've ever had. However; I more often than not take care of myself sexually. My obsession with size takes/has taken a lot of my free time and looking back I really wish I could have done something more constructive. I believe my size is adequate and I'm very good in bed. I need to stop worrying about penis size and focus on more important things. I'm going to pack it all up tomorrow and keep it from myself for a while and see how I feel. Maybe work out instead.
Dude, you don't look like you have anything to worry about from a size perspective. That thing looks pretty thick naturally. Where did you start before PE?
 

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anything taken to excess is "too much" and a break is far from a bad idea.

please do not forget that since you see your self physically daily, changes may be harder to actually see.
Yes their have been some gains over this time. It wasn't for nothing. The time and money spent seems like a waste though because I know I'm perfectly healthy and above average before all this even.
 
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Dude, you don't look like you have anything to worry about from a size perspective. That thing looks pretty thick naturally. Where did you start before PE?
My secret journal started back in 2006 when I purchased a penimaster traction device I was at 19.4cm bpsfl now I'm at 21.9cm my girth went from about 5" to 6.25" bit I was perfectly fine to begin with not sure why I was so determined.
 
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I packed it all away, my dresser stash, the bathroom stash, everything I have is now in one tool box in the closet. I found that journal in there, back in 2006 not sure how I was measuring but 19.5cm was in their twice.....so was this successful probably, am I done for now, yes. I made a visualizer of my old size vs now to help me realize this wasn't a loss.
 

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I've been obsessed with trying to grow my penis for over 10 years now, hell I even kept a paper journal when I started. I've been getting depressed lately, in a funk. I've done everything I could think of from pumping to pills to jelqing to weird stuff. I believe I've stayed about the same size the entire time. I've always felt inadequate, this is probably due to my first girlfriend not enjoying sex at all. I'm a shorter guy so people's expectations are low and I usually surprise anyone who gave me a chance, since the first girl all others were happy with me. I feel like I've spent a ton of time masturbating and trying pe and it's not been healthy. My wife can't seem to keep up with my libido, but nobody ever could,and she's been the best I've ever had. However; I more often than not take care of myself sexually. My obsession with size takes/has taken a lot of my free time and looking back I really wish I could have done something more constructive. I believe my size is adequate and I'm very good in bed. I need to stop worrying about penis size and focus on more important things. I'm going to pack it all up tomorrow and keep it from myself for a while and see how I feel. Maybe work out instead.

Your dick isnt small/short mate!
 

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That's just it! It never was, I'm perfect the way I am! Maybe a bit overweight lol.

so a better use of your time could very well be in cooking/weightlifting/sports/biking/something more active, if you want to go down that route.

Actually, definitely go down the cooking route. it's a very important skill and a great way to impress people, especially the girlfriend/wife. ;)
 

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so a better use of your time could very well be in cooking/weightlifting/sports/biking/something more active, if you want to go down that route.

Actually, definitely go down the cooking route. it's a very important skill and a great way to impress people, especially the girlfriend/wife. ;)
I've already started lifting and ran...I'm feeling less depressed and maybe, just maybe I'll try cooking.
 
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Devoting anything more than occasional attention to pe is an enormous waste of time. Congratulations on gaining real perspective on this. Life is too short to be obsessed with a normal healthy body.

Enjoy all the new extra time you've gained.
 

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...Congratulations on gaining real perspective on this. Life is too short to be obsessed with a normal healthy body...

you gained 118 cubic centimeters. that's nothing to scoff at considering the average volume. :eek:

You congratulate him gaining perspective but not on his gain gains...because you don't think it's possible..all an illusion/delusion.
 

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You congratulate him gaining perspective but not on his gain gains...because you don't think it's possible..all an illusion/delusion.
The delusion was that I thought I needed the improvement in the first place. It was in my head, and no amount of improvement was going to be enough. I was fine before, and bigger now, but I wasn't going to ever be happy unless I was still gaining. I had a problem. I'm going to try, at least for now, to improve other aspects and relationships in my life.
 

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You congratulate him gaining perspective but not on his gain gains...because you don't think it's possible..all an illusion/delusion.
I never said that, and thanks for trying to speak for me. Bitter much?

I congratulated him for what he was actually proud of.
 
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Thanks for noticing, until you take an inventory of where you've been it's hard to notice.
I definitely understand that. I can understand wanting to stop. I have a some what simple goal but I'm pretty good and hitting that goal and stopping. I'm close to your sgarting size. So this is very encouraging for me. Also you have a wonder cock ;)