I've been obsessed with trying to grow my penis for over 10 years now, hell I even kept a paper journal when I started. I've been getting depressed lately, in a funk. I've done everything I could think of from pumping to pills to jelqing to weird stuff. I believe I've stayed about the same size the entire time. I've always felt inadequate, this is probably due to my first girlfriend not enjoying sex at all. I'm a shorter guy so people's expectations are low and I usually surprise anyone who gave me a chance, since the first girl all others were happy with me. I feel like I've spent a ton of time masturbating and trying pe and it's not been healthy. My wife can't seem to keep up with my libido, but nobody ever could,and she's been the best I've ever had. However; I more often than not take care of myself sexually. My obsession with size takes/has taken a lot of my free time and looking back I really wish I could have done something more constructive. I believe my size is adequate and I'm very good in bed. I need to stop worrying about penis size and focus on more important things. I'm going to pack it all up tomorrow and keep it from myself for a while and see how I feel. Maybe work out instead.