Ok sorry for this being a second thread in a while, but I felt like proclaiming this to make it seem more real. So today was possibly the last time I will ever speak to a girl who has pretty much destroyed my personality and last 2 and a half years of my life. She's been manipulative, made me feel worthless. She's made it so I can barely look at a girl properly at the moment, and I feel my social side is a bit wrecked. I just feel a little bit... broken. Anyway, this thread isn't about feeling sorry for myself. Today she got in touch because she finally found out my plan that would help me move on. Basically, we stopped talking after XMAS (worst Christmas period of my life) and I had the desire to move on, but because I love her and seem to have got myself trapped in my own emotions, I sent an email to her recent ex. It's a long story so I won't bother, but basically the intent was that he would find out shes cheated the whole time, he'd tell everybody, she'd feel a bit hurt and key; she'd never want to talk to me again. It worked. Wasn't a great argument but at least we know it will never happen now. Wasn't even sure I wanted it to, it's just I've been trapped in my emotions for 3 years now... didn't know another way out. So now I am free to move on. Do whatever I want. But I think I have a long process of recovery ahead of me.