I had been dating with one guy for all most 2years, but we just broke up 3month ago, because I had back to my country. I didn't tell him that I was going back again because I wasn't sure to coming again. but after I came U.S. again unfortunately I found out that he got a new bf. I was very upset and sad even I went his house at very late night lastweek. but he kept saying that he loves me but he can't broke up with his bf...and I was very drunken and he was too. and I was very upset and trying to him broke up his bf...omg!!! I was very drunken and couldn't remember whole situation. but I realized that there is nothing else I can do right now, except just for waiting... but after that I got a new bf too..but I don't think that I really love him so much like my ex. I cried over a lot=( :sad6:
and even I started to use facebook again but I blocked him because otherwise I'm gonna look his facebook out everytime. but he blocked me too....so sad and I want to stop crying but I can't...now my loneliness is killing me and I still believe in him......I can't show him up to my real feeling....because I was act like very coooool but I'm not...really! I'm exhausted and painful...
but now I'm getting problem that I've been sex a lot with any guys lately
even now I'm seeing someone... I've sex with my first ex, and his friends and I did it with other friends and when they drunken they called me to have sex with them but I couldn't refuse. even though seems I was very scared of sex a lot...sometimes I'm crying while having sex because just sad and am not really happy! they gave me a smoke(marihuana) so I felt better...and I can't stop bymyself right now....because I'm very lonely now.......what should I do? right now?
sorry for my bad english which isn't my first language:biggrin1:
and even I started to use facebook again but I blocked him because otherwise I'm gonna look his facebook out everytime. but he blocked me too....so sad and I want to stop crying but I can't...now my loneliness is killing me and I still believe in him......I can't show him up to my real feeling....because I was act like very coooool but I'm not...really! I'm exhausted and painful...
but now I'm getting problem that I've been sex a lot with any guys lately
even now I'm seeing someone... I've sex with my first ex, and his friends and I did it with other friends and when they drunken they called me to have sex with them but I couldn't refuse. even though seems I was very scared of sex a lot...sometimes I'm crying while having sex because just sad and am not really happy! they gave me a smoke(marihuana) so I felt better...and I can't stop bymyself right now....because I'm very lonely now.......what should I do? right now?
sorry for my bad english which isn't my first language:biggrin1:
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