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So this might be a complicated one but the idea is really hot(for someone who is into cuckolding and slut shaming/corruption). Some of you might think I need therapy or something, not gonna lie I do agree.
But here's the fantasy:
I will start off as a somewhat innocent gay boy who believes in true love and positive things. I believe one day I will find the love of my life. I had a crush who is seemingly far sway from me (a celeb) but I have faith to meet him and win his heart(or at least meet someone just like him). But the constant lack of love and the desire to be loved drove me to do things I am not proud of ——like hooking up with strangers.
I would apologize to my crush in my heart whenever I did those things at first. But then I would feel less guilty as I would be earning cash providing services. I would tell myself that I am saving up to get the chance to got to my crush's country and meet him so that was ok.
Then somehow, friends around me started to use me (Something like a straight friend found out I was out prostituting and started to bully me) freely. I find that humiliating at first but soon enough I started to enjoy it, crave it even. I stopped earning incomes by being used but I don't feel as guilty. As I somehow begin to believe my crush would love me even if I am like this.
At this time I still have my senses and believes. but I do enjoy not only being used by men, but also being seen as a slut by my old friends. I do still have faith I would find love one day. Maybe not with my crush, but someone who can truly love me.
then I will completely accept my fate as a slut after I find out that my crush is actually dating someone I know (who I despises and who I thought was straight. and someone who used me). Well I wouldn't believe it at first, I still tell myself that my crush would snap out of it. But after I was shown how slutty my crush was in front of him, and how they are so in love, I started to accept that my crush is actually happily in love without me. and for me, the happiness from love may never come, only the happiness from being a disposable slut remains for me.
finally I would lose all my faiths in love and even in self-esteem and self-worth. I still get jealous when I see my crush posting Photos of him and his lover together, wondering what it would be like if I get a life with someone I love. I would have thought about this many times while different men's cocks were in my mouth/ass. sometimes the guy I am servicing would snap me out of my fantasy by slapping my face and saying slurs.
But here's the fantasy:
I will start off as a somewhat innocent gay boy who believes in true love and positive things. I believe one day I will find the love of my life. I had a crush who is seemingly far sway from me (a celeb) but I have faith to meet him and win his heart(or at least meet someone just like him). But the constant lack of love and the desire to be loved drove me to do things I am not proud of ——like hooking up with strangers.
I would apologize to my crush in my heart whenever I did those things at first. But then I would feel less guilty as I would be earning cash providing services. I would tell myself that I am saving up to get the chance to got to my crush's country and meet him so that was ok.
Then somehow, friends around me started to use me (Something like a straight friend found out I was out prostituting and started to bully me) freely. I find that humiliating at first but soon enough I started to enjoy it, crave it even. I stopped earning incomes by being used but I don't feel as guilty. As I somehow begin to believe my crush would love me even if I am like this.
At this time I still have my senses and believes. but I do enjoy not only being used by men, but also being seen as a slut by my old friends. I do still have faith I would find love one day. Maybe not with my crush, but someone who can truly love me.
then I will completely accept my fate as a slut after I find out that my crush is actually dating someone I know (who I despises and who I thought was straight. and someone who used me). Well I wouldn't believe it at first, I still tell myself that my crush would snap out of it. But after I was shown how slutty my crush was in front of him, and how they are so in love, I started to accept that my crush is actually happily in love without me. and for me, the happiness from love may never come, only the happiness from being a disposable slut remains for me.
finally I would lose all my faiths in love and even in self-esteem and self-worth. I still get jealous when I see my crush posting Photos of him and his lover together, wondering what it would be like if I get a life with someone I love. I would have thought about this many times while different men's cocks were in my mouth/ass. sometimes the guy I am servicing would snap me out of my fantasy by slapping my face and saying slurs.
