If i cant see my dick during sex i convince myself im not erect when i am. Lack of sensation, thoughts?

[Antonio8inches]

I get anxious only stimulation from handjobs get me reinvigorated faster?

I basically only film porn and dont feel sensation from penetration especially with a condom on.

Its easy for me to zone out.

When i do i feel only having the girl stroke me and watching it be played with gets me excited .

Penetration sex i feel for enjoyment is just for the women,


I prefer BJ/HJ/tittyfucking

Anything i can see my dick being played with

 

[jumbo747jet]

Maybe you've gotten addicted to viewing porn in order to get off, or can only reach climax from manual stimulation (wanking).
Why not try and avoid watching porn and cut down on masturbation for a period of time, to see if you're able to regain your full sensation ?

 

[Antonio8inches]

see I actually have

I abstain for up to a week before shooting content so my load sizes are huge

I dont really watch porn anymore as if i did i would want to get off but due to filming I cant so i save myself

I am also circumcised

never cum from penetration close once but i stopepd for filming purposes

 

[Andrej_u]

I get anxious only stimulation from handjobs get me reinvigorated faster?

I basically only film porn and dont feel sensation from penetration especially with a condom on.

Its easy for me to zone out.

When i do i feel only having the girl stroke me and watching it be played with gets me excited .

Penetration sex i feel for enjoyment is just for the women,


I prefer BJ/HJ/tittyfucking

Anything i can see my dick being played with

You answered yourself in your post.
Not everyone prefers penetration! You are more attracted to boobs, and you like seeing a woman engaging with your dick. It's more common than you think and I'm sure there are a lot of women who like that too, who don't necessarily like penetration. The clit is outside anyway. Think of the myriad women who can't easily be penetrated (for any reason), who would love a partner that is not penetration-focused.

Maybe you could conjugate penetration and your fantasies by finding a woman who lets you have a more passive role, and wants to take control by playing with her pussy or ass on your dick? A lot of in and out and thrusting on the clit so your big boy is still at the centre of attention, and at the same time you can see on her face the pleasure you're giving her?