This is a great tread and love the talk so far. You guys are funny. I am 49 years old and gay. Things in the United States, and really bad in the Mid-West on anything to do with gay. Where I live in Indiana they dont even talk about the gay pride parade when it happens.
I knew I was gay from very early on. The first sexual thought that I can remember was kindergarten. When we lined up to take a leak as a group, there was a boy named Jack Green. When he took a leak, he always pulled his pants alway to the floor instead of using his fly. I always made sure that I was behind him every day. I loved to look at the dimples on his ass. Well lets get to oming out
I am so glad that it is a little better for young people today. From kindergaten to 8th grade I was in a Private Baptist Church school, it was rough. The only talk of being gay was bad. I always kept it to myself. Figured if anything like that came out they would kill me. It was that bad. During private school I didnt have any girl friends. I was in sports and always had some form of work and church took up the rest of my time. I was the tallest kid in school when I was young. Dont know what happend , I stopped really growing at 9. By that time I was 5'6" and have the dick I have know. I started puberty at 8. Grew 1 foot in a year and was finished by 9. I had a relationship with a Sunday school teacher from 9-13. He said all men have a little fun on the side , but just never speak of it. He was 23. WE had a blast for that time. I really could not go many places, but could always go to my sunday school teahers house. Dont get me wrong, I knew what I was doing by that time. I loved men. From 13 to 17 I had sex with 3 men. It always was a drunk situation and was never spoke of again. They all had girl friends . I figured my Sunday school teacher was right. Men have a little fun on the side and never talk about it. I really didnt know of any gay situation growing up. I didnt even know of gay people being out or gay bars till I was 23. In high school I didnt date any girls. I was the oldest of eight and 7 years older then my next brother. Freshenman year I had a full time job, stocking shelves at the grocery store. I had sports so there was time to go out with the guys, really not anything else. I was called down to the office one day. The dean aked if I would carry around a box . This box was hooked to a phone line. It went to a sick girls named Suzanne. I had 5 of the six classes she had. She had Mono and was home ill. I went to her house or the hospital once a week to pick up her home work to take back to school. I was 16 at that time. I had not dated any girls and not had sex with any yet. When I was in High School there was a dance that the girls asked the guys. I think it was called a "Sadey Hawkins Dance". I was asked by "3: girls. One of them was Suzanne, the sick girl. My mother found out and told me to go, that it was part of growng up and I had to go. I told her that I didnt want to but she insisted. I choose the sick girl named Suzanne. After the dance all guys that I knew where going to a private place to go "Parking" . Since I knew these guys, I knew that I had to go to fit in, so I did. When we went parking, the sick girl asked me to fuck her. I didnt ask, but she did. It was ackward for me. But I figured that I have never had sex with a women, so this would tell me if I was gay or not. On the way home I had some real deep thoughts. I thought " where was the fire works". It wasnt like it was with men. I really knew at that time I was gay. My family was " Church" people. Sex was never spoke of. I didnt know any thing about birth control at all. Actually I thought that there was a old saying, " 3's a charm". I thought that you had to cum in a women 3 times at once to make her pregnant. The sick girl came to me on monday after the dance and asked me when we where going to go out again. I told her that we where not going out again, She was pissed. 4 weeks later she came to me and said she missed her period . WE had a test down from a doctor and she was. Boy, that day changed my life forever. With coming up in private school , I was taught one thing, marry her. So I did. What a mistake. There went law school for me and a very hard life. I was on a trip with my father. Just him and I . We went to his home place, Alabama. This is way back in the sticks, if you know what I mean. We stopped at one of his cousins house and there was a 21 year old girl. My father asked where was her husband. She stated that she didnt have one. My father asked why. She staed that all the goods ones are taken and the rest fuck each other. I thought I would never hear that, especially not back here. On the way back to the hotel my father asked me why I was so shocked that there was gay people back there. I told him if it was Chicago, New York, San Fransico I would under stand. He cam back with, so you think that gay people only live in big citys. So I thought for a minute. I guess that sounds dumb. My father stated that there was gay people every where. He then stated that he didnt understand why gay people just couldnt be gay nand be happy, just like myself. I was so shocked that I couldnt even speak! The whole way back to the hotel I didnt even talk. I didnt know what to say. I thought that if my father found out he would kill me. When we got back to the hotel I went straight for the shower to avoid him, I didnt know what to say. I got out and we went to dinner. We started talking about other thing then he aked me, " are we going to finish the gay talk or what". I was shocked again. I asked him if he thought I was gay. He said yes. What a shock again. I didnt know what to say. My father said that I needed to be happy in my life, life is short. Well that is what kept me on the path I was on, my father. I was married to the first wife for 12 years, the second 2 years. When I went home, I packed my things and moved out and started a divorce. My father is what brought me out of the closet. He is one of my best friends to. It made us closer. It broght me on the path that I found my partner. Him and I have been with each other for 14 years know. He is the love of my life and I am happy with that part of my life, I am lucky. Sorry it was so long, but my coming out was a real long process. Thanks guys!