Sounds like you're bisexual at the least. I was gay and fell in love with a girl in high school. We married and had three kids and a great sex life. We divorced though (not because of my sexuality) and I never was able to feel comfortable enough again to peacefully date women or have casual sex with a woman. I say peacefully because I knew I was gay. I had no confidence with women and that was not a good feeling.
My advice to you, explore before you might commit to a straight relationship. If you don't you will likely end up struggling and wanting sex with men. One of the worst things for a bi or gay married man is to be dying for sex with another man and be married to a woman.
PM me if you'd like.