Dr. Drew always said that one of the main factors of a trully freaky sexual being is being molested as a child or raped or something similar...
I just think you need to stop being sexual for a while and just figure your inner problems out. Seek counciling, someone might be able to help you work it all. It'll be alright if you just try to work it out.
that is very true. and many, like myself, have a "rape" fantasy. it doesn't mean that we WANT it to happen, its just the IDEA of it.
...i haven't had sex for like 3 years. :wink:
but i sure masturbate quite a bit. even when i'm NOT horny. i don't know why, but i feel like i HAVE to everyday. its sorta like if your partner wanted to have sex and you didn't...and you were like "whatever. do whatever you will, but lube it up so it at least slides in without any trouble." once in a while i cry in the middle of it. it gets me pretty mad, so i "punish" myself.
i also have a porn addiction which can get annoying.