Chase,
You might like law school, you might not. There are plenty of pros and cons to any course your life takes. But that's not the issue.
I come from the same kind of family. Here's my advice.
- Don't call Muvie
- Don't build bridges/mend fences with your mother
- Don't build bridges/mend fences with any of them
- Become financially independent, if you're not already.
These people are toxic. They will infect you with their bitterness and unhappiness. Every exchange, no matter how innocent, is an opportunity to:
- Belittle you.
- Demean you
- Criticise you
- Tell you that your existence isn't justified
- Make you unhappy
- Find a problem in an otherwise perfectly acceptable situation
- Spread gloom, bile and hatred
- Rob you of your self-respect.
- Make you feel that taking control of your own life is pointless, doomed or futile. And even if not, you're incapable of it anyway.
You don't live for their convenience. The purpose of your life is not to live their dreams or make their lives easier. Your being happy is an affront to them, because they can't control it.
It's tempting to think that something YOU can do will help them change, for them to become generous of spirit and capable of love. It pains me to say so, but it ain't gonna happen.
What you're doing with your life right now isn't wasteful of time or energy. You're learning how to be happy in your own skin--a lesson they obviously didn't think was important, one which they never learned themselves, it seems. Keep learning. It took me years.
(in fact, it took me until I was in my 30s to know and respect myself well enough to change the "unsure" in my profile. If I'd done what you did and took the time to kick around and live life before college, maybe I would have been surer faster, and a whole lot of human misery might have been avoided)
Self respect is a more important lesson to learn than law school can ever teach you. I know--I attended law school, and my reasons were tied up in a whole lot of mother-issue-shit. BIG mistake. As Alex8 observed, law school turns out major-league Muvies by the score.
They will use every contact with you to make you unhappy with something, usually yourself. Stay away from them. Save your soul.
Just my 2 cents.