Chris, I honestly wish you well. I really do. I'm not much for all the drama that seems to surround you and your threads and I think it needs to stop. I, for one, will not contribute beyond that. Get over yourself and get better. Go away and move on. And maybe someday, someday, come back. That seems to be the overriding theme, don't you think? Mostly, people here wish you well, and that's the best you could you possibly wish for, and get. Let that be what you take, then, and go.
I don't know you, and I don't mean to judge. I'm just am sorry to see all this bullshit. Frankly, you've been an ass, and you know that, too. Extenuated goodbyes are obnoxious. I'm probably weighing in on the side of a lot of other people's thoughts but perhaps another one will make you realize, oh... I don't know, it probably won't make you realize anything. Whatever. I really do hope it all works out for you, but I won't be reading anything else from or about you any more. I sort of have felt like you do now--most of us have at one time or an other--and patience wears thin. I really don' want to see another thread with your name on it and if I do, I won't read it. Not for 6 months or so. But in the mean time, I really will wish you the best.