I'm not gay but...

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  1. Jokeln

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    I have a frustrating problem. For a long time, I've loved anal play. I like to fuck myself with dildos and such, while watching porn or jerking off or whatever. I like to get bigger and bigger things to stick in there hehe. I really really REALLY want someone to fuck me in the ass. I want a big cock and I want it hard and fast. My favorite fantasy is to get fucked hard while someone else sucks my cock until I cum, now THAT would be awesome! I also have this extreme desire to suck a cock and make it cum!

    But here's the problem.....I don't like men =( I try to watch some gay porn, try to develop a taste for it but it doesn't turn me on.
    I've gone on craigslist, theres so many gay ads I could easily reply to one and have sex with a man. I've even posted an ad and I get tons of responses. But I'm not attracted to men! I look through the ads and I just go "uhg!''. I can't respond to any of the emails i get from my add because I think that men are gross lol. Men are just ugly to me! Their butts are shaped ugly to me, I don't like men's faces, legs arms, everything. The only think I like is the cock, and even then I really only like mine. I still want to suck one and get fucked regardless I want to feel it not see it.

    I don't know what to do, I look at the stupid ads on craigslist alll the time and I just can't do it, men are just gross to me. How the hell do I fulfill my fantasy?!!? I'm not attracted to the things that can give me what I want! I love women, I want sex with women the whole 9 yards, but I also want what I said above and women can't give it to me obviously.

    I don't know what to do =(
     
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    2 women with strap-ons? Would that do it for you?
     
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    Where did you post on Craigslist? just m4m - try mw4m or post your own m4mw expressing what you desire.
     
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    Maybe, but I don't think I could find 2 women to do that with. I've only ever told one girl that I liked it and she freaked out and thought I was gay and would cheat on her with a man. As if gay people have less self control than straight people or something stupid like that. I could cheat on her with a woman just as easily!
     
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    Hmm, that's a good idea thanks man.
     
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    I think you may have some internal conflicts to sort out that are getting in the way.
     
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    Well you could always have 2 women, one using a strap on while the other blows you OR you could have one woman give you a bj and use a dildo on you at the same time.

    I thought Craigs list was made to take down their personals section after the Craigs list killer?
     
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    Like what? I don't think I have any conflicts really. Its not like im a confused teenager saying "am I gay or not?! omg I don't know what I am!" I know exactly what I am and what I want. Its just a matter of how to get it...

    Nope the personals section is still up. I wish I could find two girls for that, but I can hardly find one girl to do anything with haha.
     
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    To the original poster, I have to agree with Max on this one. Even your original post, you fail to state that you want a woman to perform these acts. You say that you want someone-no gender specification, so it leads to believe that it's pretty open. As a gay male, I'm sexually bisexual. I can and do appreciate the female form, and there's nothing ugly about it. I'm not sure how you were raised, whether it was very religious or if you were sheltered- no matter what, judging from your other posts I would definitely say that you're not homophobic or ignorant, so that's wonderful! But whatever stigma you have, you have to let go of it. Post an ad stating that you're looking for a guy to hang out with and possibly mess around with- whatever happens, happens. Make a friendly connection and go from there- it could help alter your view of someone being attractive. That way if you do mess around with another guy, it's because of what's on the inside that you like, not the outside.
     
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    I'm sorry but men are ugly lol. I have no stigma with gays. I really wish that I did find men attractive but I don't. It would make it alot easier for me to get what I want! I have sort of been with a man, I met a guy and I fucked him but it sucked and it was really hard to keep my dick hard. I'm just not attracted to men. I do want to be fucked by a man but I do not want to look at a man lol. I find men gross and ugly, that's just how it is. A woman with a strap on would be cool I guess but I don't think they could fuck as well as a real man could. I liked the idea of looking for a man and a woman, that way I can focus on her but still have a guy there to do the things I want.
     
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    You could always join a fetish site so you are more likely to meet someone that understands what you want and wants the same thing.
     
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    A fetish site? Like eharmony but for wierdos like me? Hrmm
    Edit: I don't really know any...any suggestions?
     
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    Trans-sexuals.
     
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    Maybe Alt.com? Fetlife? Somewhere you can type a description of what you are looking for.
     
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    Man, I know where you're coming from, but trust me, it's really your own head that is keeping you from acting on it. Check my earlier post:

    http://www.lpsg.org/84694-the-question-of-if-being-11.html#post2892052

    Have fun, stay safe & don't sweat too hard. It's all about what you find personally acceptable, and doesn't need to align with anyone else's standards (until you commit to them, of course).
     
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    Oh wow! Your just like me! cool man.
     
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    Oh brother. :rolleyes: Men are "gross" and "everything" about them is ugly? Don't you think that's a bit over the top? But you want to suck cock and get fucked in the dark and not see anything? Sure sounds like some "conflicts" to me. I repeat:
    The term "cognitive dissonance" springs to mind, also denial and rationalization. I think the fact you felt compelled to state this at the outset as your thread title is a giant clue: "I'm not gay but..."
     
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    there are a lot of men out there, who have the same desire as yours. So I'd recommend you not to worry and let things flow.
     
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    Lmao, there's no denial dude. I think its you who simply cannot understand. What is there to deny? From what I've been reading there are straight men who like it in the butt. It feels good. Apparently you dont HAVE to be gay to like anal play. HMMMM. Maybe its you who is in denial. You think you have to love the male form to like the things that I like. Sorry man, I'm not in denial, I'm just not attracted to men. What is there to deny? I look at a guy, my brain goes "meh..." I look at a woman my brain goes "MMM MMMM!!!!" I just want to get fucked in the butt and maybe suck a dick. I like the dick but not the rest of the man, the rest of him is ew yucky unnatractive. Its as simple as that.
     
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    Yeah, it's not quite that simple. For starters, I never said or even implied you were, or had to be "gay". Nor did I say you had to "love the male form", so you can stop twisting my words and exaggerating now. But repeating over and over how "ugly" and "gross" men are, "ew yucky", etc., at the same time you are obsessed with the idea of sucking cock and getting pounded in the ass, plainly exposes some real conflict. Even bonafide well-balanced straight men who don't share your M/M sexual desires don't feel a need to declare over and over how "gross" and "ugly" men are. On the contrary, in my experience well-balanced straight men have no problem seeing another man as attractive, even if they have no desire to do anything.

    It's pointless for us to continue this dialogue though, as you are clearly locked into your mindset. The question is not "what [your] brain [does]", the question is why it does what it does. I would suggest you seek counsel from a caring therapist to help you sort this out, one who is open on matters of sexual orientation. Can't hurt. Might help. Unless, of course, you're afraid of honest self-examination. In which case, I would suggest you just keep playing with dildoes and fantasizing that they are completely detached from those "gross ugly" men. :rolleyes:
     
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