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Yeah, it's not quite that simple. For starters, I never said or even implied you were, or had to be "gay". Nor did I say you had to "love the male form", so you can stop twisting my words and exaggerating now. But repeating over and over how "ugly" and "gross" men are, "ew yucky", etc., at the same time you are obsessed with the idea of sucking cock and getting pounded in the ass, plainly exposes some real conflict. Even bonafide well-balanced straight men who don't share your M/M sexual desires don't feel a need to declare over and over how "gross" and "ugly" men are. On the contrary, in my experience well-balanced straight men have no problem seeing another man as attractive, even if they have no desire to do anything.
It's pointless for us to continue this dialogue though, as you are clearly locked into your mindset. The question is not "what [your] brain [does]", the question is why it does what it does. I would suggest you seek counsel from a caring therapist to help you sort this out, one who is open on matters of sexual orientation. Can't hurt. Might help. Unless, of course, you're afraid of honest self-examination. In which case, I would suggest you just keep playing with dildoes and fantasizing that they are completely detached from those "gross ugly" men.
So please explain to me exactly where the conflict is. If you can clarify this point then your post may have some merit. Otherwise you are trying to play psychologist when you clearly are not one. You are simply saying "hey you guy, you have conflict..you are conflicted..you need help because of this conflict" Tell me exactly what the conflict is.