I have a frustrating problem. For a long time, I've loved anal play. I like to fuck myself with dildos and such, while watching porn or jerking off or whatever. I like to get bigger and bigger things to stick in there hehe. I really really REALLY want someone to fuck me in the ass. I want a big cock and I want it hard and fast. My favorite fantasy is to get fucked hard while someone else sucks my cock until I cum, now THAT would be awesome! I also have this extreme desire to suck a cock and make it cum!
But here's the problem.....I don't like men =( I try to watch some gay porn, try to develop a taste for it but it doesn't turn me on.
I've gone on craigslist, theres so many gay ads I could easily reply to one and have sex with a man. I've even posted an ad and I get tons of responses. But I'm not attracted to men! I look through the ads and I just go "uhg!''. I can't respond to any of the emails i get from my add because I think that men are gross lol. Men are just ugly to me! Their butts are shaped ugly to me, I don't like men's faces, legs arms, everything. The only think I like is the cock, and even then I really only like mine. I still want to suck one and get fucked regardless I want to feel it not see it.
I don't know what to do, I look at the stupid ads on craigslist alll the time and I just can't do it, men are just gross to me. How the hell do I fulfill my fantasy?!!? I'm not attracted to the things that can give me what I want! I love women, I want sex with women the whole 9 yards, but I also want what I said above and women can't give it to me obviously.
I don't know what to do =(