I'm not straight and I think I'm wierd

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  1. tami_big

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    It's been a year since I came out. Cose friends now know my sexual preference and even straight males are asking me to start hooking up again. I tried numerous hook ups but I'm just plain conservative. I know that I am sexual but most of the time, I really don't like the idea of having an all out sex with another guy. It is really hard for me to be turned on

    Sure I watch gay porn (save for the rim job part which is totally off for me) but after jacking of over those vids, I then lose my interest with gay men.

    Moreover, I considered myself as a top. Though I only tried it once. LOL. The thing is, I only "top" on special conditions - the guy should be extremely neat looking (and I have to know his hygiene regime), otherwise I won't be turned on. (But certainly, I don't like being the bottom dude)

    I don't like big dicks (but wth am I doing here? LOL). Seriously, I don't like them big. I just prefer average size, below 6 inches but not less than 4. I dunno, maybe I feel that I don't have use for a potential partner's big dick.

    These aforesaid criteria make it hard for me to have a partner. And sometimes I;m starting to become frustrated because I know I cannot lower down this kind of expectations.

    Some friends told me that maybe I;m not really that gay. I am certain that I am gay. I like giving head and totally entertain the idea of making out with my ideal partner... anyhow I hope I make sense :)
     
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    I'm wondering why you feel you have to be in a specific category like "gay". You may have the potential to share sex with men or women if the right partner came along. Another thing, you said "most of the time I really don't like the idea of having all out sex with another guy", well why do you think you have to always be thinking about sex? When the time is right you'll know it, you'll be turned on; nothing conservative about it...your body will dictate the need. Regarding large cocks, if you happen to get one, play with it and take as much as you can. It may take some practice but then you may truly find satisfaction from it. When you find a potential partner relax and explore, talk and express what is pleasant for you with your partner, whether its a man or woman. Be open minded and you can have a lot of good sexual experiences.
     
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    Sounds like you might actually have a mild case of OCD.
     
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    Do you think you might be struggling with some internalized homophobia? Even after we come out, not all of us are fully comfortable with the idea of being gay.
     
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    Since it's only been a year since you came out I would venture to say that you are still in the mode of finding yourself, experimentation is natural, in a world that has sexually transmittable viruses it would appear that you are concerned about a persons hygiene before you engage in sex with them and that is as it should be. Not liking a big dick could be many things, if you mean when they penetrate you then the partner at the time isn't taking the time to help you to relax and enjoy it, and that could be a block for anyone since it hurts. If you can suck a big one then you're capable of other things with it. Not having all out sex with a guy tells me that you are protecting yourself for some reason. One day you will meet someone and all of this will be a thing of the past and when you look back you'll ask yourself 'why didn't I do this sooner' ... Good Luck! Unwind and chill out about it all, it'll do you good.
     
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    I once read a study that revealed that only 50% of gay couples have anal sex. The other half mainly prefers only oral sex. You're not weird; you just fall into the latter group of guys.
     
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    ^ What he said.

    By "all out sex", what do you mean exactly?

    I think most guys lose interest in porn once they've ejaculated.

    You should do what you like and what you're comfortable with, and look for partners who complement that.

    You will make a lot of smaller guys happy with this preference/attitude.

    I don't see why it's that hard, and it's surely not a lowering of expectations. You like what you like, and that's fine. Sometimes it's more a matter of just being clear about your likes and dislikes, communicating that with potential partners, and finding people who complement you.

    Despite the stereotype, buttfucking is not what defines gay sex. It's not necessarily the main event either, nor is it necessary at all for lots of gay men. Lots of guys aren't into it at all, and they're no less gay than you. I'm sure there are plenty of guys out there who would love to make out with you, get down with some oral and whatever else you're into. Just know that whatever you're into or not into is perfectly okay and go with that.
     
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