I will try to some this up in briefly. I dated a girl in HS, nothing ever happen, We got together 17 yrs ago and had a continuing relationship since then except for about 2 yrs when I didn't live in the area. I moved back 9 yrs ago and we assumed our relationship as if we had never been apart. She was never just a "booty call" for me. We told each other HUNDREDS of times that we loved each other. We both are/were married and we talked many times about the possibility of us being together one day. Our relationship lasted until last yr. We are still friends and we talk often. I recently got a divorce and she is now serious about leaving her husband . . . BUT now she says, "that I am not the one for her". I don't understand what has happened, in some ways I feel like she was just using me all the yrs that we were lovers. She is real adamant that she does not want to be with me and I don't understand why after all the special and intimate times we spent together. Can any of you ladies give me some insight??