i am only gay for big dicks. i've been that way since i was a 13 year-old in the football locker room. since i first hit puberty, i've never been attracted to a guy unless first i knew he had a big dick (usually i saw it in the locker room or later in the frat house showers). then and only then did i let myself admit that i wanted to suck cock. and only BIG cock. eventually i even came to terms with the idea of getting fucked by a guy. although my fascination with big dicks made it so that it took several attempts to actually successfully "bottom" for another guy. it's not easy putting nine thick, curved inches in your ass without prior experience! a lot of (gay) guys i know usually start bottoming with average-sized dicks and then "graduate" to finally being able to take a big one. for me, i never wanted any dick in my ass unless it was menacingly HUGE. personally i know of no greater physical sensation than riding a great big hard-on and feeling it massage my prostate. i honestly wonder how straight guys go through a lifetime without the joy of that sensation... anyway the first time i sucked dick it was everything i dreamed it would be. i was in my late teens and i'd met up with a HOT 26 year-old guy, and when his big crooked hardon popped out of his jeans the first thing i could think to do was get on my knees and kiss it. Literally kiss it. it was so beautiful to see a great big penis that was hard just for ME. needless to say i let myself be taken advantage of for an entire nite of tremblingly-forbidden sex. my only regret is that I wasn't able to take his cock fully up my ass. We tried lots of different positions, but his penis was so thick and hard that I just wouldn't take it more than halfway without it hurting like crazy. I was only a teenager then. Now I know how to take a big cock, and it really makes me feel like more of a man when I can take a big one all the way the the hilt. To all you hung guys out there, I am your biggest admirer.