Yes. I'm admitting it. I'm a loser. I hook up with this gorgeous guy while in NYC whom I met through work. (I wrote about this here: http://www.lpsg.org/104489-my-first-one-night-stand.html) We stayed in touch since then and kept texting or chating together. I decided to spend my new year's and christmas in the City just because I love it, and partly because of him. I got a place and all that crap and paid shit ton of money (I'm a grad student) and now... now, he tells me he's not gonna be in town. I feel like a jackass. I'm going to make sure I make most of my time in the City, but I know I am loser because I've been just obsessive. Why am I writing this. Just because I feel like an idiot, and want to say it out loud.