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Hey guys, I'm in an absolute emotional chaos right now. And need your advice.
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My boyfriend and I are together for almost 8 years now, he is my first boyfriend and man that i have sex with. Bevor him i only was with girls. I only know sex between Men with him.
Our everyday relationship is more than perfect, very harmonious. We never argue, our friends always say we are the perfect couple. He is the love of my life.
Now comes the point!
Sexually things have been bad for a long time, we hardly have sex anymore. With good luck, once a month, monotonous sex. I want to try a lot of things that he doesn't like.
In the past few months I've also felt a need, a desire.
A desire to gain sexual experience. Feeling an another man, suck and fuck another man, trying new things out, things that my boyfriend doesn't like. But I would never told my boyfriend about it, I'm more of someone who tries to suppress such thoughts. And dont want to hurt his feelings.
UNTIL 2 days ago.....
I caught him cheating, he told me he met with work colleagues. Later when he was back home, he got a Whats app message with the sentence "It was nice to fuck you hot boy". (His phone was on the table and the message pops up on the lock screen.)
Of course I was angry and hurt and besides myself, I also pounded him.
I thought why does he do this to me, doesn't he love me anymore?
We then argued for half the night, until it calmed down again and we both talked really openly with each other for the first time in our Relationship.
He explained to me that he loves me like on the first day, but this sexual situation between us is a burden for him.
I then told him that I feel the same way and that I need to gain experience and would like to feel another man.
We both came to the conclusion, we love each other, we want to get old together BUT we are sexually unhappy.
We both suggested an open relationship pretty much at the same time. We went through the rules and started the Open Relationship and downloaded Grindr.
Later when we were in bed, we fucked and it was really hot and good again in a long time. At the moment it turned me on that he had a different cock inside a few hours earlier.
But now I'm sitting here today, writing at Grindr with others and suddenly I'm unsure whether I really want this open relationship thing. I could have met someone today, but in the end I blocked it.
I'm torn inside. On the one hand it is what I had in my mind for a long time, the desire for something different sexually, on the other hand
i'm not sure if it's really what I want.
My boyfriend is suddenly totally balanced now, also shows me who he is writing with on Grindr.
What do you advise me?
Actually, I can only find out if I like it when I try it. Or what do you think?
Text becomes a little longer.
My boyfriend and I are together for almost 8 years now, he is my first boyfriend and man that i have sex with. Bevor him i only was with girls. I only know sex between Men with him.
Our everyday relationship is more than perfect, very harmonious. We never argue, our friends always say we are the perfect couple. He is the love of my life.
Now comes the point!
Sexually things have been bad for a long time, we hardly have sex anymore. With good luck, once a month, monotonous sex. I want to try a lot of things that he doesn't like.
In the past few months I've also felt a need, a desire.
A desire to gain sexual experience. Feeling an another man, suck and fuck another man, trying new things out, things that my boyfriend doesn't like. But I would never told my boyfriend about it, I'm more of someone who tries to suppress such thoughts. And dont want to hurt his feelings.
UNTIL 2 days ago.....
I caught him cheating, he told me he met with work colleagues. Later when he was back home, he got a Whats app message with the sentence "It was nice to fuck you hot boy". (His phone was on the table and the message pops up on the lock screen.)
Of course I was angry and hurt and besides myself, I also pounded him.
I thought why does he do this to me, doesn't he love me anymore?
We then argued for half the night, until it calmed down again and we both talked really openly with each other for the first time in our Relationship.
He explained to me that he loves me like on the first day, but this sexual situation between us is a burden for him.
I then told him that I feel the same way and that I need to gain experience and would like to feel another man.
We both came to the conclusion, we love each other, we want to get old together BUT we are sexually unhappy.
We both suggested an open relationship pretty much at the same time. We went through the rules and started the Open Relationship and downloaded Grindr.
Later when we were in bed, we fucked and it was really hot and good again in a long time. At the moment it turned me on that he had a different cock inside a few hours earlier.
But now I'm sitting here today, writing at Grindr with others and suddenly I'm unsure whether I really want this open relationship thing. I could have met someone today, but in the end I blocked it.
I'm torn inside. On the one hand it is what I had in my mind for a long time, the desire for something different sexually, on the other hand
i'm not sure if it's really what I want.
My boyfriend is suddenly totally balanced now, also shows me who he is writing with on Grindr.
What do you advise me?
Actually, I can only find out if I like it when I try it. Or what do you think?
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