- 7"24,
Hey guys. *To update everyone my boyfriend is 18 senior in high school. *I'm 24 we have been dating for 4 months. *I am his longest relationship, and are each others first boyfriend. *We both lead two different lives when not with each other, we are both very straight acting. *We progressed very quickly in our relationship, saying I love you fast, slept together pretty quick, but only get to see each other once or twice a week. *I love him, I know it, I could go on defending how I know I am in LOVE but that's for another post, just believe me he is my love, and the only person I want forever. *
Here's the problem, *he won't open up to me on an emotional level. *He will always say I love you. *But when it comes to deep emotions etc it's like talking to a brick wall. *It makes me question if he loves me. *He says he never wants to break up, he wants to spend his life with me. *But yet he can't express these things out loud. *I know his mom and dad are split up so I kind of feel like that has developed his idea of relationships.
He won't talk to me about being gay, but says hes fine with liking guys, and knows what he wants. *The thing is I'm a person who lived to 24 thinking these feelings would go away and that it was just a block from a sexual experience I encountered at a very young age again topic for another post. *After being with him I know what REAL love is and who I want to spend my life with. *But I have had such a hard time accepting that, I have needed his support but can't get it.*
*When we are together it's dynamite, but he can still have an occasional moment where it's like he's putting up a wall. *I don't want to question his love but how can I help move our relationship forward. *
He does little things every now and then to show me he loves me, and it's not all about sex.
I just have a hard time staying motivated feeling like he will never change and never want to open up to me or feel closer to me. *I feel like I need that. *How do I help myself relax about the situation I don't want to push him away. *
Any advice or questions would be greatly appreciated.
Here's the problem, *he won't open up to me on an emotional level. *He will always say I love you. *But when it comes to deep emotions etc it's like talking to a brick wall. *It makes me question if he loves me. *He says he never wants to break up, he wants to spend his life with me. *But yet he can't express these things out loud. *I know his mom and dad are split up so I kind of feel like that has developed his idea of relationships.
He won't talk to me about being gay, but says hes fine with liking guys, and knows what he wants. *The thing is I'm a person who lived to 24 thinking these feelings would go away and that it was just a block from a sexual experience I encountered at a very young age again topic for another post. *After being with him I know what REAL love is and who I want to spend my life with. *But I have had such a hard time accepting that, I have needed his support but can't get it.*
*When we are together it's dynamite, but he can still have an occasional moment where it's like he's putting up a wall. *I don't want to question his love but how can I help move our relationship forward. *
He does little things every now and then to show me he loves me, and it's not all about sex.
I just have a hard time staying motivated feeling like he will never change and never want to open up to me or feel closer to me. *I feel like I need that. *How do I help myself relax about the situation I don't want to push him away. *
Any advice or questions would be greatly appreciated.