OK, let me break it down for you. I've been with my boy for about 6 months now. We're totally in love and things are going great. I'm a total top and he LOVES getting fucked. He loves my huge cock and I love his tight round hard ass. He's a sexy, very pretty Brazilian guy. Aside from the sex and him being incredibly good looking, we enjoy spending time together and laughing, etc. BUT, the problem is this: he's a little below average in the penis department, and I REALLY miss sucking a big juicy cock! Frankly, his penis doesn't really turn me on. So what should I do? I obviously shouldn't cheat on him, although I live in NYC near CHELSEA and it would be pretty easy to do! But I'm a good guy... I've had my chances and resisted (somehow)! This dilemma has lead me to explore an idea neither of us have ventured into with prior relationships: a 3-some. We've (mostly I) have began discussing the option of bringing another person into our sex life on occasion, or even one time just to try it out. He knows that I like big dicks and I mentioned a couple times that I miss playing with a big dick. (We've practiced being very honest with each other). He said he's open to the idea, but is he saying this because he really is or because he's just trying to please me? We've had sex a number of times where we role play (I love being very verbal). And a number of those times, he'd be, for instance, sucking my dick and I'd turn him on more by fingering his ass and getting him to imagine another cock inside his ass while he sucks my dick or vice versa. He seems totally turned on to the idea... I know it's just role play, but we also check out guys together. We have similar taste half of the time it seems. It's fun when a guy walks by and we both catch each other checking him out (we even start humming that Britney Spears song "3" jokingly). The issue I have is that, as I mentioned, he's Brazilian - jealous and shit, you know. Even if I get him to agree to a 3-some, would it be like, say, poppers with some people, where you introduce it in your sex life and can't enjoy sex without it again? Would he hold it against me? Is he REALLY ready? Or what if someone ends up feeling left out? That leads me to another idea; maybe we can experiment by playing with another couple. That way it's like 2 on 2... or all 4 playing... and after we cum, they're in a relationship and so are we. I wonder if it might be safer that way. I wouldn't mind seeing him suck another cock while I suck another cock, or we both make out while we suck another cock at the same time while the other dude is sucking my cock (you get the idea). We can even say that we could only engage in anal sex together, which would make it safer emotionally and physically. So there you have it. What to do... My roommates seem to be very against the idea. I'm pretty liberal and open-minded. I've mentioned to my boyfriend that I'm "sex-positive" which is a new concept for him. Am I using his love for me as a way to satisfy my selfish desires? Sometimes he's into the idea, other times he's not so sure. What if we go through with it and sometime in the middle of the act, he freaks out? What if I end up getting so turned on with another person that I become less attracted to him sexually and will always feel something is missing when it's just us two? What if I can't shake my desire for a big dick out of my head? What if... This is my dilemma.