insecurity where u wouldn't expect it

Merman127

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That's unfortunate and all, but maybe you could... uh... stop?

Seriously, though, I've been insecure for as long as I can remember because of a few things I can't change. First of all, I'm gay, which doesn't sound like a big deal, but it is to me. I went to Catholic school for 13 years and grew up with really emotionally abusive brothers who made me feel very ashamed. I've always been anxious that I may not be masculine enough (although I'm not very flamboyant), and am constantly worried that people will be able to tell that I'm gay.
Secondly, I'm 5'5", and as it has already been mentioned, it isn't easy. From birth you constantly hear the phrase 'tall, dark, and handsome.' It's the first one!! Again, I feel like that strips me of masculinity some how. When I'm around 'normal' guys, I feel so out-of-place, like I'm always being judged.
Finally, I'm always insecure about my face. I know I'm not 'ugly,' or even unattractive, but I know I won't be winning any beauty contests. I feel like people don't see me as sexual. They always say I'm 'so cute,' but never 'hot,' and it would be nice to feel like an attractive man rather than an adorable boy. I'm 27 years old...
Anyway, that's my rant. Thanks for listening...
 

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I have stopped before but it didn't make no difference. The only drug I have done a lot is weed. I only tried a couple other things. But i even stoped smoking weed before and the people who weren't close friends would still say the same stuff. After I told some of them I don't smoke anymore they don't believe me. Also, it has to do with the fact that I always look high. My eyes are usually a little red and glossy and I got sort of droopy eyes. But I think that might be from not getting enough sleep. Anyway, I like smoking weed a lot. I never really got into doing anything else but smoking weed and drinking once in a while. I just hate the fact that some people consider you a drug addict or a burnout because you have smoked a lot in your life. Weed isn't even that bad and people make it sound like such a horrible thing i just don't get it.
 

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It's partly because ganja is being hybridized and has been getting stronger and stronger. I used to smoke dope and enjoy it, but I wouldn't recommend making a career out of it. The stuff they have nowadays would knock me on my ass I'm sure. You know, reality is not so bad when you get used to it. Why go around anesthetized? You'll have plenty of opportunity for that when you're old.