Anyone who can offer insight, advice, and/or opinions about a relationship I have with a friend, I would really appreciate it. I am kinda confused about all of this and maybe someone can help. There is a guy who I have become really close to recently. The way things started was with this guy always saying flattering things to me (telling me that I dressed well, i was smart, attractive, nice eyes, etc.) He told me that when he first met me, he thought I was gay. We both are well hung and we brag about it all the time and give each other compliments. He always talks about how we are two good looking horse hung studs who can get any girl we want, yada yada. On a few occasions (4 or 5 times), we've gotten drunk and jerked together...and about 3 or 4 times, my buddy has grabbed my dick to see what it felt like. We joke about jerking off together, saying how fun it is and how much we like to do it and we talk about doing more of it. Over time, he's become so comfortable around me that there is no inhibition about being naked around me. I feel the same way towards him. We've measured and compared our cocks on a couple of occasions. But even simple things like taking a leak or taking a shower...he doesn't close the door, but rather, he wants to talk to me while he's naked or his dick is in view. I'll be taking a leak and he'll feel free to walk right up. We have no problem whipping out our cocks in front of each other. We've been skinny dipping quite a few times now. My buddy has told me that he is NOT gay but that he has no problem with gay guys and that he has even gone to gay bars and that he wants to go with me....but we really don't talk about it much. It comes up every now and then. He's told me that he flirts with gay guys and that he has hung out with drag queens and stuff. One night he asked me was I gay and I told him no. About a month later, he asked me again. Both times we were completely drunk (and I mean completely). I got pissed off because it's like he is persistent in asking me this whenever we get really really drunk. I tell him no, but he'll keep pushing the issue. The first time it happened, I had told him that I was so horned up that he'd better get away from me. So then he asked me a lot of questions about my sexual orientation and sexual experiences with guys. The second time, I had been joking around and told him I was bisexual. That's when he started asking me was I really a fag. After we sobered up, he'd tell me that he didn't honestly think I was gay. But I told him that I didn't think it was fair for him to ask me that and call me a fag when he openly admits to me that he has gone to gay bars, that everyone who meets him usually thinks he's gay (including he current girlfriend), that he puts make-up on his eyelashes and dyes his eyebrows, that he puts on his girlfriends bra and takes pictures, that he tries to get me to put on women's wigs, that he flirts with gay guys and drag queens, and that he is overly into fashion and designer labels, he grabs my dick, jerks off with me, etc., yet I never call him a fag or ask him if he is gay. Just a few other things....I've noticed that there is a strong level of affection between us. When I go out of town, he will call me almost every day. When I'm in town, we see each other almost every other day and talk almost every day. I don't do this with any other guy nor does he. People who we hang out with consistently say that he is my boyfriend and I'm his. Even people who meet me for the first time tell him that. I've been told that when we are together, there are obvious signs of strong affection. I've notice that we typically stand really close to each other when we talk and we tend to seclude ourselves. On a couple of occasions, after getting drunk, we'd end up sleeping in the same bed and I would find myself having wrapped my arms around him. He doesn't seem to mind either. Most recently, he told me that he thought I was confused about how I felt about him. I admitted that I love him greatly. He says that I'm confused about why I like him so much and that I'm used to being in control of relationships and that I must feel like in our relationship, I'm not in control. I admitted that he was right...I don't understand why I love this guy so much. We both have girlfriends. He is completely obsessed with his girlfriend. They talk to each other at least 10 times a day and have more sex than horny rabbits. I know he loves her dearly and he spends all of his other free time with her. Both our girlfriends are jealous of our relationship. ..so much so that they will tell us. He's told me that he feels really close to me, that he's closer to me than anyone other male (including brothers). So...I'm just kinda confused about all of this. Anyone have any thoughts?