Great to hear from my Asian fellow's perspective.
You're so right about this one! I went to a psychiatrist after breaking up with my exes to help get me through shit I'd been feeling. Since before the breakups, I hit rockbottom in terms of self-esteem -- I had been depressed and had binged eating stopped going to the gym. I had been in toxic relationships with narcissists (both overt and covert). So, that's why I don't know how to be around with people anymore. Again, I was never a super confident guy to begin with. I just used to be more confident when I was single 7-8 years ago than I was when I was in relationships and than I am now.
You're right again about this point. This is what I've been doing recently. I've been working out religiously.
Not to get jacked. Just to get fit and toned again. I watched YT videos about narcism quite a lot. I mean I kinda knew it from the beginning that my exes were narcissist. But I just never trusted my gut feelings. If I get to know a person "in person", I can tell what kind of person they are with my intuition. I'm quite good at that. But being a people pleaser, sometimes I simply let my guard down and and I go with my heart not my brain. That's how I got myself into shitty situations. For the appearance, I still pass as a mid 20's. But I don't if that's a good or a bad thing. I mean, I don't wanna took more mature than my age but looking too young could be a turn-off???? I don't know. Plus I can't grow a beard. It doesn't exist. So, that I can't that either. But I'm not on Romeo to find hookups or a (sex) partner or a bf. I'm there for FRIENDS.
Jack'D and Grindr are worse, from my experience. Befriending with tourists isn't my thing because when I go traveling, I want to see the world, the city and I don't want to have my emotions locked into someone who I just know briefly. It's an emotional thing... If I get to know someone, I just want to learn more about that person deeply, get more invested emotionally. If you know what I mean. I don't use the word "friends" lightly. I'm glad that you totally understood INFJ's behaviors. Home is my sanctuary... It's my inner peace. I can escape everything just to be "alone". Hence, I collect houseplants and cook and bake so I can feel at peace. But, of course, I need to get out and meet friends (if I ever had one) once in a while.
Were you saying that I was looking for another INFJ as a friend? If so, I am not doing that. I just want to find at least a friend who shares common interests with me and understands me and I can
physically hang out with or talk with sometimes.
I don't know about the gemini thing. I'm a taurus but I don't believe in horoscope. What is true about taurians where I actually fit in the box is I can be quite stubborn (but in my case it's more like decisive --> the "no" means "no" kinda thing). In contrast, the MBTI thing is more of a behavioral thing. It's observable and more "scientifically" proven.
Also, I'm glad I helped you figure out what INFJ door slam is. You got that, too, right? I recommend you watch YT videos of Clay Arnall's. He doesn't post much anymore but the more I watched his videos about INFJ, the more I feel related. I hadn't known about the INFJ door slam thing myself until I watched his videos. That's how I realized why I acted like a totally different person when I completely shut someone off of my life
I'm glad I found another INFJ on here. We're not the rarest anymore. I think more people wanted to join the "rarest" club.