TripodMillenium
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I wouldn't say your situation is abnormal at all. It may be a bit uncommon, but you're not just an average guy, are you?
Given some deeper thought, have we not all learned from the need for such a forum as this that the people who most think "have it made" are actually suffering, too? We are endowed, yet we face discrimination, jealousy, and we are even used for our sizes. You have that issue, plus you are certainly an attractive and even articulate young man. This likely compounds the matter significantly. You also seem to have somehow kept a very healthy amount of self confidence and strength despite your self esteem problems. Confidence is also a strong attractive factor to people.
For people, our first drives are our primal ones... From an early age people found you attractive and their wants went right to sex... from that early age you were naturally willing to accept that attention. You just got swept up in an unfortunate tide.
There seem to be more paradoxes, like attractive individuals having low self esteem, in the world than we ever come to realize. I, for one, would have to say many of these seem to verge on being the rule instead of the exception.
anyways... back to the central issue... ((sorry... ADHD... :redface: ))
I've felt like you have... but a little different. All my sexual encounters have been either struck off by someone knowing my size and wanting to see/touch it and such, or by me wanting to be with them and using myself as far as my size to play off their curiosity and get attention. There were times I've seriously thought of myself as perhaps less than a common slut or whore... I've gone so far as believing that my cock is the only reason someone would want me, though. It wasn't an abnormal pattern that lead me to this... just an unhealthy one.
I have since started making changes... opening my heart... and find myself similarly looking for something meaningful, instead, now.
Since I first got back from being away from here for so long... You were one of the people whom I have noticed among the sea of people here -- and that was well before I saw your great pictures. There was something in your posts and the way you conducted yourself that stood out... a strong, intelligent, dynamic quality. You're certainly worth so much more than what you've been settling for for so long. Try to remember that.
When there are so many choices... so many people out there that desire you... then what you should be doing is NOT thinking about them. It is up to you to CHOOSE, not to settle.
((I always think of others all the time in life... and even in these things, I would settle for who wanted me just because they wanted me.... but now I realize that I am even hurting them by settling... because I am allowing them to rope me into a situation where not only do they not love me truly, but I am depriving them of someone who can return the feelings they deserve... I realized I was leading people on who were mindlessly buying into the illusion of me that they created in their minds. When you settle, you're doing both you and the other person an injustice.))
*hits himself* again I must digress...
You say you like this girl very much and that she likes you... If this is the case then you should stop worrying about it. BOTH of you deserve better than all the worries, since you have something good there. You are now looking for something serious... for love and affection... You are in a new era of your life now, and the old era is dead. With the death of the old era in your life, you can let those old worries die. You are ready for more.
p.s. The only other advice I can give on the matter at hand is this: If you are concerned about the sexual part of your life and relationships, then let that take a back-burner. Focus, instead, on the emotional part of your relationship and on the bonding. Focus on what matters and, as far as sex goes, let what happens happen as a secondary item in the relationship.
Sound good?
Given some deeper thought, have we not all learned from the need for such a forum as this that the people who most think "have it made" are actually suffering, too? We are endowed, yet we face discrimination, jealousy, and we are even used for our sizes. You have that issue, plus you are certainly an attractive and even articulate young man. This likely compounds the matter significantly. You also seem to have somehow kept a very healthy amount of self confidence and strength despite your self esteem problems. Confidence is also a strong attractive factor to people.
For people, our first drives are our primal ones... From an early age people found you attractive and their wants went right to sex... from that early age you were naturally willing to accept that attention. You just got swept up in an unfortunate tide.
There seem to be more paradoxes, like attractive individuals having low self esteem, in the world than we ever come to realize. I, for one, would have to say many of these seem to verge on being the rule instead of the exception.
anyways... back to the central issue... ((sorry... ADHD... :redface: ))
I've felt like you have... but a little different. All my sexual encounters have been either struck off by someone knowing my size and wanting to see/touch it and such, or by me wanting to be with them and using myself as far as my size to play off their curiosity and get attention. There were times I've seriously thought of myself as perhaps less than a common slut or whore... I've gone so far as believing that my cock is the only reason someone would want me, though. It wasn't an abnormal pattern that lead me to this... just an unhealthy one.
I have since started making changes... opening my heart... and find myself similarly looking for something meaningful, instead, now.
Since I first got back from being away from here for so long... You were one of the people whom I have noticed among the sea of people here -- and that was well before I saw your great pictures. There was something in your posts and the way you conducted yourself that stood out... a strong, intelligent, dynamic quality. You're certainly worth so much more than what you've been settling for for so long. Try to remember that.
When there are so many choices... so many people out there that desire you... then what you should be doing is NOT thinking about them. It is up to you to CHOOSE, not to settle.
((I always think of others all the time in life... and even in these things, I would settle for who wanted me just because they wanted me.... but now I realize that I am even hurting them by settling... because I am allowing them to rope me into a situation where not only do they not love me truly, but I am depriving them of someone who can return the feelings they deserve... I realized I was leading people on who were mindlessly buying into the illusion of me that they created in their minds. When you settle, you're doing both you and the other person an injustice.))
*hits himself* again I must digress...
You say you like this girl very much and that she likes you... If this is the case then you should stop worrying about it. BOTH of you deserve better than all the worries, since you have something good there. You are now looking for something serious... for love and affection... You are in a new era of your life now, and the old era is dead. With the death of the old era in your life, you can let those old worries die. You are ready for more.
p.s. The only other advice I can give on the matter at hand is this: If you are concerned about the sexual part of your life and relationships, then let that take a back-burner. Focus, instead, on the emotional part of your relationship and on the bonding. Focus on what matters and, as far as sex goes, let what happens happen as a secondary item in the relationship.
Sound good?