Lust and friendship is like oil and vinegar. They don't mix well.
the problem is...we fucked the first night we hung out.
then fucked every time we hung out.
she asked, what are we.........blah blah blah i said lets be fuck buddies, she agreed.
had sex a few more times.
all the while she was opening up to me, showing me she had an emotional connection. not so much this, just how she would do little things, watch out for me, hold my hand, cuddle.......etc. and of course i fell for it, thinking sex would stop.
i kept bringing up......ah eh, your actions and words are conflicting here. she kept agreeing with me, saying she doesnt know blah blah blah she likes me but doesnt want a relationship blah blah blah but still wants to have sex and see where it goes.
that is when the sex stopped. i didnt get turned down......i just didnt see it in her eyes and she wasnt jumping on me.
we were still hanging out alot.....and at this point the emotional bond was getting stronger with her. she would tell me stuff that no one should know

she even let me read her diary.
this last stage,,,is where she would always kiss me........and i mean that deep tight emotional bs. this is when i realised that i liked her, and i did all along for the most part.
so either i have no idea what im doing with women or this bitch is fuckin crazy and i want out. lmao