I'm sure I'll find the right one sooner or later, but I sure wish it would happen already!
I had a couple good relationships with women, but both of them were 10 years older than me, and I was thinking of what would happen long term as they got older way before me.
Sometimes I wonder if I met the right girl and simply fucked it up.
This one girl 2 years ago, I met her online, we were able to talk for hours easily on the phone, etc, and when I met her 9 days later we had the best first date I've ever had, it lasted 7 hours. Second date was also very good, 3rd date we went out for a while and then to her place.
I was so nervous about moving things too fast and ruining it like that, that I think I went too slow. We were on the couch kissing on the 3rd date, and I didn't even touch her tits!
I look back and think "WTF was I thinking by moving that slowly", and this was after she told me that she'd tell me if I was going too fast!:banghead2:
We planned a 4th date for my birthday, but at the last moment she asked for a 1 day delay so she could meet her little nephew and niece for a day, then after that she was sick and didn't want to talk on the phone, and got pissed when I called her and she was still "sick" 3 days later.
I fucked myself good on that one, it still hurts to think about it. Was she the one? I hope not.