It has been my experience that once I have had that first experience of playing with a real cock, the desire builds again to where I have to get some cock again!
Then I feel guilty afterwards, but as time goes by the ache to feel a warm hard cock grow in my hand and mouth compels me to seek it again!
Then, once I tasted a guy's load for the first time, the craving for cum overwhelms me again and again. I watch cumshot compilation videos and I am driven crazy to swallow loads of it!
That's exactly how it is with me. I had my first experiences pretty early on and it was never something I was looking to get into, or even thought about. I had guilt after it happened and each time figured I'd move on.
I went a number of years after those early formative experiences only dating women. But the urge was always in the back of my head, sometimes louder than other times, but there nonetheless. I was 26 when I eventually hooked up with a guy online again, once I began sucking his cock....it wasn't everything I had built it up to be, I almost had a bit of disappointment in me even though he had a big, fat, juicy, cock which was exactly what I thought I wanted. Don't get me wrong, I didn't stop....but I sucked him in a way so that I'd get it over sooner than I originally thought I would want to.
And that was that, got it out of my system I guess.......
WRONG.....the urge would still linger and I tried it again and again with less and less time passing between each meet up. Many of those events were similar, at least in the sense that the lust in reality didn't match the picture in my mind. But this changed as the cravings grew......and now it almost hurts in the pit of my stomach at times when I crave cock so much. (if I got more of it perhaps that would mellow) Now, when I do hookup, my reality is even better than the fantasy still always leaving me wanting more.
So for me, it is true. I never wanted it to be my truth but I think cock is more addictive then crack!
